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Have I ever mentioned that the Foos Rock?

Best of you


I've got another confession to make
I'm your fool
Everyone?s got their chains to break
Holding you
Were you born to resist?
Or be abused?
Is someone getting the best of you?
Or are you gone and on to someone new?
I needed somewhere to hang my head
Without your noose
You gave me something that I didn't have
But had no use
I was too weak to give in
Too strong to lose
My heart is under arrest again
But I'll break loose
My head is giving me life or death
But I can't choose
I swear I'll never give in
I refuse
Is someone getting the best of you?
Has someone taken your faith?
It's real, the pain you feel
Your trust?
You must confess
Is someone getting the best of you?
Has someone taken your faith?
It's real, the pain you feel
The life, the love you'd die to heal
The hope that starts the broken heart
Your trust? You must confess
Is someone getting the best of you?
I've got a another confession, my friend
I'm no fool
I'm getting tired of starting again
somewhere new
Were you born to resist or be abused?
I swear I'll never give in-I refuse
Is someone getting the best of you?

The Beach

sleeping on the beach has got to be one of the most peaceful experiences.

easy living.

how in the world do they know these things?

Your Birthdate: January 22

While sometimes employing unorthodox approaches, you are capable of handling large scale undertakings. You assume great responsibility and work long and hard toward completion. Often, especially in the early part of life, there is rigidity or stubbornness, and a tendency to repress feelings. Idealistic, you work for the greater good with a good deal of inner strength and charisma. An extremely capable organizer, but likely to paint with broad strokes rather than detail. You are very aware and intuitive. You are subject to a good deal of nervous tension.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Somebody to love

Can anybody find me somebody to love?
Each morning I get up I die a little
Can barely stand on my feet
Take a look in the mirror and cry
Lord what you're doing to me
I have spent all my years in believing you
But I just can't get no relief, Lord!
Somebody, somebody
Can anybody find me somebody to love?

I work hard every day of my life
I work till I ache my bones
At the end I take home my hard earned pay all on my own -
I get down on my knees
And I start to pray
Till the tears run down from my eyes
Lord - somebody - somebody
Can anybody find me - somebody to love?

(He works hard)

Everyday - I try and I try and I try -
But everybody wants to put me down
They say I'm goin' crazy
They say I got a lot of water in my brain
Got no common sense
I got nobody left to believe
Yeah - yeah yeah yeah

Oh Lord
Somebody - somebody
Can anybody find me somebody to love?

Got no feel, I got no rhythm
I just keep losing my beat
I'm ok, I'm alright
Ain't gonna face no defeat
I just gotta get out of this prison cell
Someday I'm gonna be free, Lord!

Find me somebody to love
Can anybody find me somebody to love?

-hehe

Queen Rocks.

Dubai desert dreams

I love the way life puts you through the worst thing then lead you into the time of your life.

and now i know i am in love with what i do.

I'm happy.

Sleepless

Second night... :) hasn't happened in a long while, sleeplessness. Is it excitement? That I might have finally been rested?

Its restlessness I think. Wanting.. needing to do something. But I havent yet figured out what it is. Don't think its hit so hard in a while.. hehe.. do I do something about it? Am I about to allow the lil'uns some free reign to lead me into something whose consequences have not be cerebrally explored and carefully analysed through a detailed cost-benefit analaysis?

Trash revisited

"You know we'll end up in bed."

"No we won't."

"Try to stop yourself."

- Ellen and Spurs

Thank goodness its over!

Well not completely.. but at least I can eat properly again. And my gratitude to all of you who induldged this sympathy whore... i really announced it didn't i? haha.. but i decided enough was enough so i'm not gonna carry on whining here. its over and thats most important..

next ... not worrying.. more puzzling.. are the dreams.. i guess i have an idea of what might have triggered them.. but its not really related... or is it? is my subconscious trying to tell me something? do i not want to listen? should i? argh.

'Promise me you'll try to like it.. really. Promise?'

The elements are working against my wkend

They are.

I can't get no. Satisfaction.

The Elusive -

Twice, I have been left high and dry.
Without the thrill slithering down my throat.
Without the salty-metallic ocean taste in my mouth.

Frustrated.

flavour

Mmm ... licorice! Strong and edgy, you're the flavor of black jellybeans and Good 'n' Plentys. Some people absolutely love you (in fact, they might even find you addictive), but you're definitely not for everyone. But that's okay with you — you'd rather pick and choose your companions. When you have time for friends at all, that is. Powerful and very potent, you're goal-oriented and ambitious — you don't let much stand in your way. There's nothing sweet or sugary about you; you're a serious taste that's best suited for the truly focused. Lingering, enigmatic, and a little hard to pin down, you're a truly tantalizing treat.

career type
ENFP
That means that based on the standard measure of personality traits, you have strong organizational and project management skills. When others lose sight of the big picture, you help them to stay focused to see what's important and weed out unnecessary details. You are most fulfilled by your work when you are allowed to think creatively and consider new approaches to work. You are not afraid to take calculated risks and see mistakes or failures as opportunity for growth.

You have a diverse array of interests and are even regarded as a Renaissance type of person. You possess an inspiring zest for life and abound with creativity. You seek venues to express your thoughts and feelings. Your personality and beliefs shine through in most of the work you do.

Room style. haha
Modern
Sometimes less really is more. A modern style like yours tends to be refreshingly clutter-free and all about simple lines. Maybe you use square, pop-up baskets to hide laundry or have straightforward twill bedding in a monochromatic hue. Simplicity is for you.

While you may get overwhelmed when everyday clutter starts accumulating on flat surfaces (don't we all?), you're also probably pretty organized. Which may be why the people who know you like to congregate in your spare, calm surroundings. Maybe you set the tone with a steel desk lamp and keep disarray at bay with great-looking storage boxes. We're guessing you pretty much have a place for everything and that translates into a room that perfectly reflects your clean, modern style.

you will not knock on my door. What do you fear? That you will have nothing to say?That there will be nothing you want to hear?

You closed our door. Why? What do you fear? What is wrong with a chat?

Wo. Mad.

This year was definitely different from the rest. From a more positive perspective, it was a very chill-out Womad this year. Nice Reggae, nomad-type chanting music.

The way I see it - No Bang. It was quite a letdown.. but most of it was my fault coz I'd counted on it being one crazy night out post-conf. Guess I expected to lose myself in it and when it wasn't what I wanted, the letdown closed my mind to what might have been good.

your requests...

Personality test : http://quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Can this be real.. can this be true?

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

A girl's time..

I am in need of comfort!! Top of the list now seems to be a nice warm bolster.. sigh.. not the cranky japanese boyfriend type... those are just too freaky. But yeah, something to wrap yourself around and of course, a thick, soft, warm blankie.. sigh.. *utter bliss*

I am a foolish idealist

please give me the strength to be apathetic.

Bad news... and all you govt-related friends of mine - don't linger here long enough to get traced.

I'm sorry guys.. It really depresses me to make this announcement, although you might already have heard about it.

There will be no second public holiday this August.

It would have been an exciting experience for all of us, especially those who just turned 21 and would have had the honour of voting for the first, and quite possibly only time in our lives. Except for the luck ones living in the token opposition constituencies. You have no idea how proud you should be to have a hand in deciding that you should never be the first to have your estate upgraded.

No wonder I didn't receive the letter informing where I should go to vote. Kudos to the Elections Department for saving so many trees that would have been cut down for no good reason.

That aside, I figured, hey, maybe I should find out more about our President (this was not inspired by the TT Durai episode, during which I bitched to death about how if you dont bother to find out about others, don't complain when they don't meet your expectations). So I googled our President's name. I must admit that this is one of the most unreliable channels of information. Always double check with the Istana stie, it should have the most reliable info. The link should show as one of the first Google results.

I think after a good many sites that I visited, I've learnt alot. That the decision to issue the Certificate of Eligibility was based on a complete truth. None of the candidates have, or could have been through so many government departments - from social worker to Labour Research to the Foreign Ministry to Home Affairs to the Security & Intelligence Division to SPH.

And to all those who said that he never contributed anything to the country, guess you didn't know that he volunteered to be a hostage when the JRA attacked the oil tanks on pulau bukom in 1974 so that the civillian hostages could be released. And this is not some cooked up publicity gimmick. google it. or visit http://www.un.org/terrorism/statements/singaporeE.html (small mention of it in para 10)

So there you go. A true Public Servant, well-acquainted with how the govt works and how he fits into the grand scheme of things, a man of chivalry. There is no alternative to such a candidate. There is no need to vote.

foot-in-mouth disease

I always do it, don't I? Sometimes you get so used to saying the things you say that it becomes a thoughtless, automatic reaction that, while not untruthful, does not help the situation you're in.

**

"You 23& 21 year old girls are single by choice" This conclusion is something I usually have to go through alot of whiney rationalisation to get to... remember those sleepovers? haha.. Still, tonight, it was something that I could agree to without hesitation. Perhaps because it didnt sound like an accusation. Still, it does sound like I want to "stay on the shelf" but it honestly (and quite obviously i think.. heh)isn't the case. Let's just say ..hmm.. how to say this in a non-desperate way... I won't fight it if it happens.