dedicated to the girls

What gives, what helps
The Intuition
I'll know, I'll know
(Oh) I won't have to be shown
The way home
And it's not about a boy
Although, although

They can lead you
Hide or reveal too

A destination known
Only by the one
Whose fate is overgrown
Piecemeal could break your home
And have
A love is not complete
With only heat

They can tease you
Break or complete you

And in came a heatwave
A merciful save

You choose, you chose
Poetry over prose

A map is more unreal
(Oh) Than where you've been
Or how you feel
And it's impossible to tell
How important something was
And what you might have missed out on
And how it might have changed it all

Did I, did I miss out on you?


Intuition- Feist

A wish for Love.

What i miss most, is sharing life's tiny pleasures

- in a thought-

in a happy, dancey dinner =)

a compelling movie

Flowers in the sun =)

scintillating music.

I still love you. But we're ok. There will be something more that is truer to us and more beautiful than we can ever imagine. Then we will each create a philosophy, feast, epic, eden and kick ass rock concert for the world. And as we stand on that stage, each suddenly alive and each complete, we will remember,

the thoughts
the dinners
the movies
the flowers in the sun
Bangkok Rock

*grin*

Loneliness, don't come around here
I've boarded up all the doors
There's nothing to give no more

A visit to my happy place
On a sunny afternoon.

It was warm and cold,
and crisp and mellow

Hundred brown bottles, standing on the wall
and two brown bottles, accidentally fell.

And so we were there.
And so I was there.

On a visit to my happy place
On a sunny afternoon.

a flame tree

a flame tree, stoic in the night
breeze

unyielding in the hurricane of passion, bent over backwards

a flame tree, stoic in the night
breeze

Event idea of the Year!!

-tush- says:
are we planning something fun?
boo~ i still don't says:
singles night out where if you're single, you're single, and if your not single, you pretend
boo~ i still don't says:
and we go out, flirt like mad and realise no one is interested so the pretend singles go back and are comforted that they have a partner and the single singles are motivated to look harder for rich me

Boys and Girls who are interested, please leave your name and if this ever happens, we'll send you an invite!!

Falling in love is so hard on the knees

Whoever's whining about this should try breaking up.

i think its finally time to move on.

ok.i will stop. it's taking more of me than i care to give it so i will stop. i refuse to be an afterthought.

Hmm i was just reading through some opinions on the issues of decriminalising homosexuality in singapore.

Here's my take at 3am in the morning:

Really, why do you bother with a society that wants you only for your economic contribution and if you are just like them? Assuming their argument that decriminalising will cause straight people to become gay and just because people have and alternative lifestyle to choose from, everyone will ignore who they really are and jump on the bandwagon, what they are saying is that they don't trust themselves to do the "right thing" when they can choose not to. These are people who put their insecurities ahead of your basic rights as a human being. You won't tolerate friends who force you wear the same ugly clothes as them so that they wont look ugly, so why should you try so hard to convince these scared little people who obviously can't think straight?

Go and live the life you need to live. Dont waste it on little frogs in wells. It is quite a defeatist attitude and there are those for whom their family and friends mean alot to them so they will continue fighting. Good for you and I wish you luck but don't get your hopes up too high. There's no point feeling like a loser for failing to improve the lives of those who are quite happy stuck in the mud as they are.

is it time out already?

the social fabric today is made up of ironies.

The world wide web lets you reach out to people on the otherside of the world and disguise your true self from your friends.

Apartment blocks can house hundreds of people within 2 football fields for decades yet the concrete walls block out the screams coming from less than 3 feet away.

Literacy which put millions of words and ideas into our minds created a society that wants to communicate that wealth of knowledge in bullet points, in acronyms, and summaries.

And the very tools that lets one learn about other cultures allows one to disrespect another and do away with courtesies simply because one can ignore the other.

had 3 dreams last night.

1) nightmare
2) lovely salmon in Chinatown in NY
3) Robbie Williams.

someone remind me to tell the stories later

the first time we ever got a chance to be alone, we knew
it was wrong to do
guess that's why i was drawn to you
the 2nd time leads to the 3rd, the 5th, the 7th time
I feel so alive, it won't last but it's alright
fleeting joy and fading ecstasy
here it goes again, oh
sneaking fruit from the forbidden tree, the sweet taste of sin

and I'm doing it again
yes I'm doing it again
oh, I'm doing it again
I said it would end
but here it goes again

this time you told me you saw me at the same motel
you said you knew me well
I had that familiar smell
you asked me how am I ever gonna learn to put my trust in you
like you want me to, 'cause I know what you're prone to do
accusations fly like bullets do
here it goes again, oh
you know me, because you're doing it too
it's like it never ends, never ends

oh you're doing it again
yes you're doing it again
oh you're doing it again
you said it would end
but here it goes again, and again, and again

damn I love you, but this is crazy
I have to fight you almost daily
we break up so fast, then we


we make up so passionately
why can't we just trust each other
you can't hate me and be my lover
passion ends, the pain begins
I come back

and we're doing it again
yes we're doing it again
oh, we're doing it again
we said it would end
but here it goes again

each time you call me home in a sweet refrain
say that things have changed, take away the pain
and you flash back to the first time you put your spell on me
you enveloped me, you feel good as hell to me
one moment leads to another few
here we go again, oooh
leaving you is oh so hard to do
I just can't pretend, can't pretend

I keep doing it again
oh, I'm doing it again
yes I'm doing it again
I said it would end
oh, oh, oh, oh

oh I'm doing it again
I said it would end
oh, oh, oh, oh
oh, I'm doing it again
I said it would end
but here it goes, again

At this particular time, you are feeling that you are or were unjustly and undeservedly treated and/or betrayed in your hopes and dreams. You feel that everything is against you. But look on the bright side for you are, whether you believe it or not, a survivor.

You are a leader in every sense of the word. You know where you are going and you know what you need to do in order to get there. You exercise an inherent initiative in overcoming obstacles and difficulties. You either hold, or wish to achieve, a position of authority by means of which full control can be exerted over events.

It's the time of year that you are apt to become extremely restless and emotionally withdrawn. This is preventing you from becoming deeply involved with a person or persons within your sphere of influence. If you are willing to 'let go' and release your inhibitions you will find that a great deal of physical satisfaction will result, far more than perhaps you even believed you were capable of.

For some time now your hopes and expectations have been denied and because of this you are becoming withdrawn and introverted. Continual disappointment has manifested itself in you becoming both suspicious and restrained you have become withdrawn from others and have receded more and more into yourself. You seem to have lost your innate enthusiasm and imaginative nature, for fear that you may be carried away by it only to find that you are wasting your time. You are loath to trust people, as in the past your trust has been misplaced. You seem to be keeping yourself cautiously aloof from others. At this moment in time your attitude is to trust nobody - until they can prove themselves to you.

You are moody and depressed at this time but it will pass. All of your hopes and dreams seem to have gone astray and you are fearful of planning further for the future. Disappointment at the non fulfilment of your hopes and the fear that to formulate fresh goals will only lead to further setbacks have resulted in considerable anxiety and you try to escape from this by withdrawing into yourself. But that is not the answer. You have the power to succeed, believe in yourself... all is possible to him who believes.

check yourself out

save room for my love
save room for a moment to be with me
save room for my love save a little
save a little for me
won't you save a little
save a little for me

- JL

I had a dream.

In it i was happy.

We took a drive around.

I was lauging, and so were you.

Then it was time to go home.

But we didnt.

Then we did.

And I was sad.

Hello there,

I would like to demand to be a bratty bitch, please.

Like now would be absolutely lovely.

Thank you!

It is four a.m.

So who am I.

What do I want to be.

What am I in this world.

What am I looking for?

Lost.

clearer with beer

and so it is

and so it has to be

a bird in a gilded cage is a dead bird nonetheless.
Unkept promises of abandonment will not keep it alive.