Aha! Moments

Goodness.. it must have been EEEEEOOOONNNS since I last had the smarts. A flash of brilliance can make you so alive and full of adrenaline... imagine TWO in one night!!! Its Magical!!!

Its times like this that makes all the pain, frustration and grief worthwile...

I'm a FUCKING GENIUS!!
Wooo Hooo!!!
I ROCK!!!

What good is a life that is nothing but emotionless, experienceless efficiency? Sure you get through alot of things but none of which you remember, have any significance to you, and has no purpose other than to pave the way for more clinical and methodical living? Is life just one long to do list? Then what's at the end of the list? Die? Maybe thats why as productivity increases, suicide rates increase too. Before our allocated time is up, we've gone through the whole bloody list and reach the end. And we're so fucking efficient that we can't even let nature take its course. Better to do it ourselves. Then we can move on.

To Fucking What?

Full Circle

So it has come.. who woulda thought huh?

Yes, my dark eye circles are proper circles now.. even the eyelids are dark.. like what the hell?

I really need to sleep properly.. but nothing seems to work.. silence, music, pitch darkness, what else? I can't keep on wasting 6 hrs everyday in a state of unconsciousness but not getting any rest out of it... worse still, the day is ruined coz the drained batteries cant run anymore...


if anyone has tips that dont come from spam mail, please help!!

I don't get many things right the first timeIn fact, I am told that a lotNow I know all the wrong turns, the stumbles and fallsBrought me hereAnd where was I before the dayThat I first saw your lovely face?Now I see it everydayAnd I knowThat I amI amI amThe luckiestWhat if I'd been born fifty years before youIn a house on a street where you lived?Maybe I'd be outside as you passed on your bikeWould I know?And in a white sea of eyesI see one pair that I recognizeAnd I knowThat I amI amI amThe luckiestI love you more than I have ever found a way to say to youNext door there's an old man who lived to his ninetiesAnd one day passed away in his sleepAnd his wife; she stayed for a couple of daysAnd passed awayI'm sorry, I know that's a strange way to tell you that I know we belongThat I knowThat I amI amI amThe luckiest

-The Luckiest, Ben Folds

a self indulgent wallow.

It's the hardest thing I've ever had to do...

To open up my eyes
and look at all my To-Dos...

Waking up can be the most wonderful experiences in Life. Provided you get to go back to sleep immediately. Otherwise, it's probably the single most excruciating pain that we indulge in. Not helped by the fact that we have to go through it nearly everyday.

Sure, its a sweeping statement. Waking up can be full of hope, anticipation, excitement of whats to come in the day :) Just let me go back to sleep after that.

Space - A time and place to be intimate with oneself.

Clutter-less.

Noise-less.

Chatter-less.

Peace.

Rare.

Precious.

When was the last time you were with yourself?

Silly girls' nights out!!

Most fun to go totally silly and, for some, get picked up by little boys.. TWICE no less.. haha

I love you babes! We SO should do this more often. Cannot get old!!

Ruined

I wake up in bed at 1am and think its time to go to work.

I wake up in bed at 730am, think of the signages that need to be changed, what is the correct title to put up.

I wake up in bed at 735am and worry if I had forgotten to burn the bgm.

I cant go back to bed.

its 1.32pm

I'm getting my life back again!!!