had 3 dreams last night.

1) nightmare
2) lovely salmon in Chinatown in NY
3) Robbie Williams.

someone remind me to tell the stories later

the first time we ever got a chance to be alone, we knew
it was wrong to do
guess that's why i was drawn to you
the 2nd time leads to the 3rd, the 5th, the 7th time
I feel so alive, it won't last but it's alright
fleeting joy and fading ecstasy
here it goes again, oh
sneaking fruit from the forbidden tree, the sweet taste of sin

and I'm doing it again
yes I'm doing it again
oh, I'm doing it again
I said it would end
but here it goes again

this time you told me you saw me at the same motel
you said you knew me well
I had that familiar smell
you asked me how am I ever gonna learn to put my trust in you
like you want me to, 'cause I know what you're prone to do
accusations fly like bullets do
here it goes again, oh
you know me, because you're doing it too
it's like it never ends, never ends

oh you're doing it again
yes you're doing it again
oh you're doing it again
you said it would end
but here it goes again, and again, and again

damn I love you, but this is crazy
I have to fight you almost daily
we break up so fast, then we


we make up so passionately
why can't we just trust each other
you can't hate me and be my lover
passion ends, the pain begins
I come back

and we're doing it again
yes we're doing it again
oh, we're doing it again
we said it would end
but here it goes again

each time you call me home in a sweet refrain
say that things have changed, take away the pain
and you flash back to the first time you put your spell on me
you enveloped me, you feel good as hell to me
one moment leads to another few
here we go again, oooh
leaving you is oh so hard to do
I just can't pretend, can't pretend

I keep doing it again
oh, I'm doing it again
yes I'm doing it again
I said it would end
oh, oh, oh, oh

oh I'm doing it again
I said it would end
oh, oh, oh, oh
oh, I'm doing it again
I said it would end
but here it goes, again

At this particular time, you are feeling that you are or were unjustly and undeservedly treated and/or betrayed in your hopes and dreams. You feel that everything is against you. But look on the bright side for you are, whether you believe it or not, a survivor.

You are a leader in every sense of the word. You know where you are going and you know what you need to do in order to get there. You exercise an inherent initiative in overcoming obstacles and difficulties. You either hold, or wish to achieve, a position of authority by means of which full control can be exerted over events.

It's the time of year that you are apt to become extremely restless and emotionally withdrawn. This is preventing you from becoming deeply involved with a person or persons within your sphere of influence. If you are willing to 'let go' and release your inhibitions you will find that a great deal of physical satisfaction will result, far more than perhaps you even believed you were capable of.

For some time now your hopes and expectations have been denied and because of this you are becoming withdrawn and introverted. Continual disappointment has manifested itself in you becoming both suspicious and restrained you have become withdrawn from others and have receded more and more into yourself. You seem to have lost your innate enthusiasm and imaginative nature, for fear that you may be carried away by it only to find that you are wasting your time. You are loath to trust people, as in the past your trust has been misplaced. You seem to be keeping yourself cautiously aloof from others. At this moment in time your attitude is to trust nobody - until they can prove themselves to you.

You are moody and depressed at this time but it will pass. All of your hopes and dreams seem to have gone astray and you are fearful of planning further for the future. Disappointment at the non fulfilment of your hopes and the fear that to formulate fresh goals will only lead to further setbacks have resulted in considerable anxiety and you try to escape from this by withdrawing into yourself. But that is not the answer. You have the power to succeed, believe in yourself... all is possible to him who believes.

check yourself out