I'm really bad at this.. closing, letting go and moving on thing, aren't I? Be it a good book, anime or people. It just really really sucks. I hate it.
I absolutely HATE IT.
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
The "Get Real" episode
Ok.. I definitely need to get real about life.. what i want and whats never gonna happen. Reality check if you wanna call it that.. so here goes:
1) I am never gonna marry Sanzo or Hakkai (sorry Jenn, neither are you). They're not the marrying kind. Or alive kind, for that matter. But I love them anyway.
2) There is no one as perfect as Sanzo (sorry Jenn, Hakkai not so perfect).
At this point, I am already devastated. No more mojo already.
3) Being a Wuss is killing me. I need to get off that scardey ass and do what needs doing, bar fuck.
4) Rich men want pretty and docile wives. I am neither pretty nor docile and there are no rich men around. Marrying into money is not an option. NEVER WAS.
Life sucks boy.
1) I am never gonna marry Sanzo or Hakkai (sorry Jenn, neither are you). They're not the marrying kind. Or alive kind, for that matter. But I love them anyway.
2) There is no one as perfect as Sanzo (sorry Jenn, Hakkai not so perfect).
At this point, I am already devastated. No more mojo already.
3) Being a Wuss is killing me. I need to get off that scardey ass and do what needs doing, bar fuck.
4) Rich men want pretty and docile wives. I am neither pretty nor docile and there are no rich men around. Marrying into money is not an option. NEVER WAS.
Life sucks boy.
Wednesday, January 09, 2008
And so it seems to have finally begun
The hard-hitting torrential downpours have begun. I imagine the heavy raindrops beating down on my skin, rivulets of coolness sliding over my scalp and flowing down my knobbly spine, easily dispelling the heat of an over-agitated body wrought with frustration. They feel like a thousand little hands beating away the grime, giving me a pat on the back and each impact releases a corresponding piece of my soul that was held back by caution and fear. Before long, I am bathed in a sense of freedom so profound that my heart cannot help but burst into a sweet song of hope, love and possibility.
Tuesday, January 01, 2008
Warning: its a damn long entry.
On 31st December 2007, I cast off the worst year I've had in a long time. Quite possibly, it was the worst I've had in my entire life. By the last month, I had reached depths of depression, self-doubt, failure and loneliness that I'd never thought was possible during my invincible early twenties. But that was last year, and at the stroke of midnight (or all three times we counted down to it, as it were) i felt a great cumulonimbus cloud of hopelessness lift off my pilates-tortured shoulders and it it's place, was my allotment of optimism for the whole of 2008. It felt amazing and I truly believe that 2008 will be a great year.
The ushering of the new year were fraught with so many 'signs' of things to come and what made me so hopeful of the goodness of '08 is that it wasn't perfect by any means. First, there were the false starts of the count down that saw the yachts releasing their flares (supposed to be done at midnight) before anyone started counting down! That obviously didn't take away any of the excitement of seeing each flare soar higher, further and in completely different directions from each other and I was heartened to notice that all burned just as brightly during their descend regardless of direction or height. I took it as a sign that I do not have to be better than anyone or go with the flow and I can be just as fulfilled doing what I believe in. Those who were with me in the past month would know exactly how great a comfort that is to me.
For a moment, everyone held their breath in an awesome silence and without warning, expelled that same reverent breath in a hushed oath as a runaway flare abruptly changed its upward trajectory and headed straight for the beach meters away from where we were. It really was quite a funny moment, punctuated by a lot of nervous tittering which then broke out into hearty laughter as more flares landed on the roof of the club house (where the party was) and on the boardwalk.
As the first of the flares began their slow descent, the party at the club house finally got down to their countdown and at the stroke of the second midnight, we were surprised by a fireworks display that lit the sky right in front of us in washes of festive green, red, purple and gold. It took my breath away and all in all, the celebrations were enough to assure me that 2008 would be an inspired year. Amusing at times but always pleasantly surprising. Perfect. But that was not all. In fact, I was just about to given my first (of many, I hope) gifts of the New Year.
When the excitement died down and most of the other groups had left, I noticed the scene in front of us. An elderly lady sat on the bench and next to her was a young boy who looked to be her grandson, sitting on the ground with his back against the bench. On the other side of the boy was a woman who looked like she was in her late 20s or early 30s. In my mind, she was the mother and daughter. They remained inconspicuous throughout the entire fire and flare episode but the now quiet night seemed to throw them in to a sharp and stark focus. Despite having already settled in before we arrive and, eventually, staying after we left, they did not have the picnic clutter that everyone else brought along. From what I could see, they sat on the bare ground while the only F&B was a can of coke and a packet of chips. It would be presumptuous for me to explain their situation so I'll just offer up the scenario that I saw and the powerful resolution I made because of it.
Some of you might have seen them as an incomplete (not dysfunctional) family with little in the way of money. The sense of loneliness and material poorness (since it isn't poverty compared to some of the Third World) felt like an isolating force that kept them from having fun like the rest of us. Yet this did not make them destitute. They were not ostentatiously lamenting their plight (as would have been the case had they stayed home to be miserable). Instead, they made it a point to do what they could and got out there to celebrate in their own way.
It was then that I really could believe that I do not have to be wealthy to be able to live Life but what moved me more profoundly was that regardless of how low I might get in Life, I should still get out there and live it rather than try to hide away and begrudge the lousy hand I'd been dealt with. There is Life outside of my misery - a whole world of it, in fact.
Perhaps some might feel that at 23yrs and 11months old, it is too early for me to not be an ambitious bitch and I should not be thinking about being contented with anything that Life gave me, much less learning how to live with desolation but I disagree. I will always have my dreams and I will fight to realize them because they are what will fulfill me. What I learnt during that first precious hour of 2008 can only serve to give me strength to pursue my wayward and beautiful dreams because I now know how to deal with the worst that Life can throw at me.
So let me give thanks to the powers or fates that be, my family, my friends, and most of all to the dreadful year that was 2007, without which, I would appreciate and anticipate 2008 as much as I do now.
Bless y'all and have a great one!
The ushering of the new year were fraught with so many 'signs' of things to come and what made me so hopeful of the goodness of '08 is that it wasn't perfect by any means. First, there were the false starts of the count down that saw the yachts releasing their flares (supposed to be done at midnight) before anyone started counting down! That obviously didn't take away any of the excitement of seeing each flare soar higher, further and in completely different directions from each other and I was heartened to notice that all burned just as brightly during their descend regardless of direction or height. I took it as a sign that I do not have to be better than anyone or go with the flow and I can be just as fulfilled doing what I believe in. Those who were with me in the past month would know exactly how great a comfort that is to me.
For a moment, everyone held their breath in an awesome silence and without warning, expelled that same reverent breath in a hushed oath as a runaway flare abruptly changed its upward trajectory and headed straight for the beach meters away from where we were. It really was quite a funny moment, punctuated by a lot of nervous tittering which then broke out into hearty laughter as more flares landed on the roof of the club house (where the party was) and on the boardwalk.
As the first of the flares began their slow descent, the party at the club house finally got down to their countdown and at the stroke of the second midnight, we were surprised by a fireworks display that lit the sky right in front of us in washes of festive green, red, purple and gold. It took my breath away and all in all, the celebrations were enough to assure me that 2008 would be an inspired year. Amusing at times but always pleasantly surprising. Perfect. But that was not all. In fact, I was just about to given my first (of many, I hope) gifts of the New Year.
When the excitement died down and most of the other groups had left, I noticed the scene in front of us. An elderly lady sat on the bench and next to her was a young boy who looked to be her grandson, sitting on the ground with his back against the bench. On the other side of the boy was a woman who looked like she was in her late 20s or early 30s. In my mind, she was the mother and daughter. They remained inconspicuous throughout the entire fire and flare episode but the now quiet night seemed to throw them in to a sharp and stark focus. Despite having already settled in before we arrive and, eventually, staying after we left, they did not have the picnic clutter that everyone else brought along. From what I could see, they sat on the bare ground while the only F&B was a can of coke and a packet of chips. It would be presumptuous for me to explain their situation so I'll just offer up the scenario that I saw and the powerful resolution I made because of it.
Some of you might have seen them as an incomplete (not dysfunctional) family with little in the way of money. The sense of loneliness and material poorness (since it isn't poverty compared to some of the Third World) felt like an isolating force that kept them from having fun like the rest of us. Yet this did not make them destitute. They were not ostentatiously lamenting their plight (as would have been the case had they stayed home to be miserable). Instead, they made it a point to do what they could and got out there to celebrate in their own way.
It was then that I really could believe that I do not have to be wealthy to be able to live Life but what moved me more profoundly was that regardless of how low I might get in Life, I should still get out there and live it rather than try to hide away and begrudge the lousy hand I'd been dealt with. There is Life outside of my misery - a whole world of it, in fact.
Perhaps some might feel that at 23yrs and 11months old, it is too early for me to not be an ambitious bitch and I should not be thinking about being contented with anything that Life gave me, much less learning how to live with desolation but I disagree. I will always have my dreams and I will fight to realize them because they are what will fulfill me. What I learnt during that first precious hour of 2008 can only serve to give me strength to pursue my wayward and beautiful dreams because I now know how to deal with the worst that Life can throw at me.
So let me give thanks to the powers or fates that be, my family, my friends, and most of all to the dreadful year that was 2007, without which, I would appreciate and anticipate 2008 as much as I do now.
Bless y'all and have a great one!
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
Just as well that its 1203am now. Whatever was yesterday and before, I've been able to put down and leave it behind. Thanks, Tush. I didn't realise how much it was affecting me.
And at the same time, I've decided! haha. I'm quite excited about where I'm headed. BUT, to qualify this - relief, I guess - is that I have no idea how to get there yet. It'll come.. I'm just really really glad I've figured it out. Same as ever, it was a gut decision, made in spite of everything. I'll be able to sleep easier tonight =)
Finally:
1) I am Legend left me feeling like the aftermath of Crash
2) I wanna marry Yukio!!
Hehe.. It's time to start thinking about the resolutions... Come to think of it, I've not been excited about making resolutions for a loooooooooong time.
And at the same time, I've decided! haha. I'm quite excited about where I'm headed. BUT, to qualify this - relief, I guess - is that I have no idea how to get there yet. It'll come.. I'm just really really glad I've figured it out. Same as ever, it was a gut decision, made in spite of everything. I'll be able to sleep easier tonight =)
Finally:
1) I am Legend left me feeling like the aftermath of Crash
2) I wanna marry Yukio!!
Hehe.. It's time to start thinking about the resolutions... Come to think of it, I've not been excited about making resolutions for a loooooooooong time.
Sunday, December 09, 2007
let fly
let loose and fly. Ditch your inhibitions and have the time of your life. Its a beautiful, exhilarating feeling that I can only indulge in when I know I'm safe.. So thank you guys, for watching my back and also for not killing me for conning you into this.. hehe..
I love you all!
I love you all!
Thursday, November 22, 2007
With things like this.. who needs kiasu-ism or Singlish or even Anabelle to tarnish our reputation?
http://www.mda.gov.sg/wms.www/video.htm
WHAT IS THE CENSORSHIP BOARD DOING ALLOWING SUCH MOCKERY OF OUR COUNTRY TO BE ONLINE!!!!!
http://www.mda.gov.sg/wms.www/video.htm
WHAT IS THE CENSORSHIP BOARD DOING ALLOWING SUCH MOCKERY OF OUR COUNTRY TO BE ONLINE!!!!!
Monday, November 19, 2007
19 Nov
Sometimes I love it when Life proves me wrong and gives that bag of cynicism a good punch in the gut.
For a while now, I've learnt and accepted the fact that job satisfaction is like true love - Everyone longs for it, waxes lyrical about it, but few experience it at all, much less have a constant source of it.
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Edit on 20 Nov:
Ok so i fell asleep while writing the post. haha. here's the rest of it.
This past weekend must have been the longest I've worked in a long while. Friday was collation from 11pm til 5am. Then on Saturday night, after a lovely dinner with the ladies, went back to the event to see how things were. That was about 1230am on Sunday. From there, it was non-stop til Monday evening at 9pm. I can't count the hours correctly. haha.
Despite the hours and the stress, it felt really really good. The sense of camaraderie's something I really appreciate and unfortunately, haven't had the privilege of being part of for a long long time. Every morning after a night of no sleep was exciting, and I hardly felt tired until we slowed down. And this is the kind of satisfaction I need to get from my job. And this is the kind of dedication I want to give to my job.
So.
Is this the job? I still don't know. Mostly because I'm still quite stoned but there are many many other things to consider.
Well, I loved the weekend anyway. It was truly inspirational in more ways than one. And I envy the dedication and strength in the team, especially those who led the way and carried us on their awearied backs every step of the way.
Thank you.
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Edit on 20 Nov:
Ok so i fell asleep while writing the post. haha. here's the rest of it.
This past weekend must have been the longest I've worked in a long while. Friday was collation from 11pm til 5am. Then on Saturday night, after a lovely dinner with the ladies, went back to the event to see how things were. That was about 1230am on Sunday. From there, it was non-stop til Monday evening at 9pm. I can't count the hours correctly. haha.
Despite the hours and the stress, it felt really really good. The sense of camaraderie's something I really appreciate and unfortunately, haven't had the privilege of being part of for a long long time. Every morning after a night of no sleep was exciting, and I hardly felt tired until we slowed down. And this is the kind of satisfaction I need to get from my job. And this is the kind of dedication I want to give to my job.
So.
Is this the job? I still don't know. Mostly because I'm still quite stoned but there are many many other things to consider.
Well, I loved the weekend anyway. It was truly inspirational in more ways than one. And I envy the dedication and strength in the team, especially those who led the way and carried us on their awearied backs every step of the way.
Thank you.
Sunday, November 11, 2007
Meditation.
I float on a lily pad.
It drifts over ripples in the stream. They tickle. I squirm.
I float on a lily pad.
It is still, on a mirror sea. The undercurrents roar in my ears. I sweat.
I float on a lily pad.
It flips. I panic and inhale, eyes snap open.
Sianz...
Take a deep breath.
... I float on a lily pad...
It drifts over ripples in the stream. They tickle. I squirm.
I float on a lily pad.
It is still, on a mirror sea. The undercurrents roar in my ears. I sweat.
I float on a lily pad.
It flips. I panic and inhale, eyes snap open.
Sianz...
Take a deep breath.
... I float on a lily pad...
Meditation.
I float on a lily pad.
It drifts over ripples in the stream. They tickle. I squirm.
I float on a lily pad.
It is still on the mirror sea. The undercurrents roar in my ears. I sweat.
I float on a lily pad.
It flips. I panic and inhale, eyes snap open.
Sianz...
Take a deep breath.
... I float on a lily pad...
It drifts over ripples in the stream. They tickle. I squirm.
I float on a lily pad.
It is still on the mirror sea. The undercurrents roar in my ears. I sweat.
I float on a lily pad.
It flips. I panic and inhale, eyes snap open.
Sianz...
Take a deep breath.
... I float on a lily pad...
Monday, October 29, 2007
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
Since when was wearing a t-shirt not lawful?
http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/307126/1/.html
Sunday, October 21, 2007
tribute
Some people are good for the heart, some for the mind, and others for the soul. It doesn't matter what you do with them or how much time you spend with them, they're just good for you. We'll all do well to keep them close.
thank you =)
thank you =)
Saturday, October 20, 2007
Action - Reaction
"What the gay community does in private is their private space," said Mr Tan, an executive director of a not-for-profit organisation. - Quote from the CNA website
And I totally agree with you, Mr Tan. Which is why the law of a country should keep out of this private space. Your views, Mr Tan and that of "The Majority" as you call yourself, should not be imposed on the parts of other people's private lives that clearly do not concern you. There is no "silent majority" that supports you. If they are silent, that means they are not concerned enough to support anyone. You cannot lay claim on an indifferent population.
Indifference is NOT support.
Doesn't anyone in this country get that?
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
Notes to self from some time ago..
29 Aug 07
dreams, complete opposite faces of the same coin. Scares you to hell. In the same breath a peek into happy endings of beautiful possibilities and a backhanded slap of a reminder of all that is you that destroys.
16 Oct 07
I love us. The way we laugh together, joke together; find our way through the implicit, ignore the blatantly obvious. In however far we've come, there is further to go and wherever we end up, we will always have what we've had and more.
A Rainy night 07
a flame tree, stoic in the night
breeze
unyielding in the hurricane of passion, bent over backwards
a flame tree, stoic in the night
breeze
12 Oct 07
l am a mean person. Feeling happy for the heroine who gets the hottie is beyond me.
15 Oct 07
it is only on days when the ocean is not enough that you discover the sky. And that vastness and the grace of its existence can only be uplifting.
17 Oct 07
I am a slave to my history. For every moment of triumph, there is a daunting, haunting expectation looming in my future. I am torn between fulfilling my future and fulfilling me.
dreams, complete opposite faces of the same coin. Scares you to hell. In the same breath a peek into happy endings of beautiful possibilities and a backhanded slap of a reminder of all that is you that destroys.
16 Oct 07
I love us. The way we laugh together, joke together; find our way through the implicit, ignore the blatantly obvious. In however far we've come, there is further to go and wherever we end up, we will always have what we've had and more.
A Rainy night 07
a flame tree, stoic in the night
breeze
unyielding in the hurricane of passion, bent over backwards
a flame tree, stoic in the night
breeze
12 Oct 07
l am a mean person. Feeling happy for the heroine who gets the hottie is beyond me.
15 Oct 07
it is only on days when the ocean is not enough that you discover the sky. And that vastness and the grace of its existence can only be uplifting.
17 Oct 07
I am a slave to my history. For every moment of triumph, there is a daunting, haunting expectation looming in my future. I am torn between fulfilling my future and fulfilling me.
Sunday, October 14, 2007
Chance, and hope
A drink for one is never fun
A sip deadens the pain
She's sick of games and learning names
She puts her black book away
She scans the place for a friendly face
Suddenly everything has changed
He took a chance on romance without knowing her name
So he moved in on a whim
And now her house is their home
She forgets the days of the drunken haze
And waiting by the phone
They lie in bed with nothing said
As she gently falls asleep
He thinks about how life would be if they didn't meet
The doctor and the DJ took it all in stride
I hope she knows that she'll make a beautiful bride
It's funny how life can change at the drop of a dime
All it takes is a little faith that everything is fine
So I raise my glass to better times
I'm glad that I didn't miss my chance to see and end to misery
The doctor and the DJ took it all in stride
I hope she knows that she'll make a beautiful bride
Doctor and the DJ - Her Space Holiday
A sip deadens the pain
She's sick of games and learning names
She puts her black book away
She scans the place for a friendly face
Suddenly everything has changed
He took a chance on romance without knowing her name
So he moved in on a whim
And now her house is their home
She forgets the days of the drunken haze
And waiting by the phone
They lie in bed with nothing said
As she gently falls asleep
He thinks about how life would be if they didn't meet
The doctor and the DJ took it all in stride
I hope she knows that she'll make a beautiful bride
It's funny how life can change at the drop of a dime
All it takes is a little faith that everything is fine
So I raise my glass to better times
I'm glad that I didn't miss my chance to see and end to misery
The doctor and the DJ took it all in stride
I hope she knows that she'll make a beautiful bride
Doctor and the DJ - Her Space Holiday
Saturday, September 29, 2007
Sunday, September 16, 2007
La Petite Mort
Drizzle a tiny stream of hot chocolate over a perfectly risen souffle.
Pierce through the delicate, spongy exterior to excavate a teaspoonful and bring it towards your mouth.
Prepare for the caress of warm, caramel flavoured comfort as the impossibly light custard fills the cavity of your mouth, followed by an almost orgasmic rush of adrenaline as the hotter flow of pure, exhilarating chocolate rolls over your tongue and makes your toes curl and fills you with a desperate need to groan with the waves of pleasure hitting you over and over again. A buzz flows though your veins and you body clenches as sensations build towards a climax but just moments before you release a screamed prayer, an icy mint flavour cuts in to cool off the hot and painful pleasure, slowing down your pounding heart, relief washes over entire body.
The After Eight Souffle by The Chocolate Factory. I could only bear 2 spoonfuls.
Dear God, you have my infinite gratitude for creating the genius and inspiration for such a divine creation.
Pierce through the delicate, spongy exterior to excavate a teaspoonful and bring it towards your mouth.
Prepare for the caress of warm, caramel flavoured comfort as the impossibly light custard fills the cavity of your mouth, followed by an almost orgasmic rush of adrenaline as the hotter flow of pure, exhilarating chocolate rolls over your tongue and makes your toes curl and fills you with a desperate need to groan with the waves of pleasure hitting you over and over again. A buzz flows though your veins and you body clenches as sensations build towards a climax but just moments before you release a screamed prayer, an icy mint flavour cuts in to cool off the hot and painful pleasure, slowing down your pounding heart, relief washes over entire body.
The After Eight Souffle by The Chocolate Factory. I could only bear 2 spoonfuls.
Dear God, you have my infinite gratitude for creating the genius and inspiration for such a divine creation.
Monday, September 03, 2007
The L Word
Ok I really need to think more before I can properly write a review but in a nugget, its a soap with proper acting. it does get a little trashy sometimes but it at least feels very real. Not sure if it really is life-like and maybe not everyone will get the political and social messages without some prompting but it is definitely a good watch!
and shane is so hot!! i am so in love!!
*swoon&sigh*
and shane is so hot!! i am so in love!!
*swoon&sigh*
Thursday, August 30, 2007
Thursday, August 23, 2007
boo needs a Buy-a-Macbook fund... *tear* says:
shit.. i hate to say this
boo needs a Buy-a-Macbook fund... *tear* says:
but losing my laptop feels a helluvalot like breaking up.
-tush- says:
whyyyy
boo needs a Buy-a-Macbook fund... *tear* says:
heart pain and i'm missing it already!
boo needs a Buy-a-Macbook fund... *tear* says:
i feel like crying!
.
.
.
boo needs a Buy-a-Macbook fund... *tear* says:
i think this is like.. fear of losing it
boo needs a Buy-a-Macbook fund... *tear* says:
this is the " oh god is he going to dump me" part
shit.. i hate to say this
boo needs a Buy-a-Macbook fund... *tear* says:
but losing my laptop feels a helluvalot like breaking up.
-tush- says:
whyyyy
boo needs a Buy-a-Macbook fund... *tear* says:
heart pain and i'm missing it already!
boo needs a Buy-a-Macbook fund... *tear* says:
i feel like crying!
.
.
.
boo needs a Buy-a-Macbook fund... *tear* says:
i think this is like.. fear of losing it
boo needs a Buy-a-Macbook fund... *tear* says:
this is the " oh god is he going to dump me" part
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
Hello y'all!!
I never expected to say this at this age but these past couple of days, I've been insanely contented. haha.. Being in Canberra, and more because of staying with Tush and Sharon, I've found a lifestyle that's come as close to my ideal as ever. Reading by the lake, (cold spray and pigeon terrorists included), having coffee and meals at places that are unique and appreciated for their individual decor, atmosphere and flavours like Jones the grocer, the turkish place, Koko Black, and the best, only because I've missed it so much - Nando's! haha..
Most of all, dinners at home and each other's homes. I love the company who have been so readily accepting of meeting new people and being inclusive during conversations.
And as natural as it is to Tush and co, (hehe) it isn't something that is on the spur of the moment. Hosts plan a week ahead and so do guests, and they won't cancel at the last minute because their tired. You might argue that they don't have the work load we do but it doesn't mean we can break our own word right? So to all whom I've done this to - my sincerest apologies. I will not do it again. And I will of course, endeavour to cook and treat you to something vaguely edible, with lots of wine at mine's.
It really isn't the lifestyle in Singapore but since when have I made that my benchmark, right? So at this moment I'm quite determined to live as I feel I should. That means deciding when I will cook and make time to get grocceries and go home early. That means I will plan what to do during the weekends, even if it is to go to the beach to read, so that I will be able to do it, and then I can start liking my life again.
As a matter of course, the same goes to work as well - phew..
I never expected to say this at this age but these past couple of days, I've been insanely contented. haha.. Being in Canberra, and more because of staying with Tush and Sharon, I've found a lifestyle that's come as close to my ideal as ever. Reading by the lake, (cold spray and pigeon terrorists included), having coffee and meals at places that are unique and appreciated for their individual decor, atmosphere and flavours like Jones the grocer, the turkish place, Koko Black, and the best, only because I've missed it so much - Nando's! haha..
Most of all, dinners at home and each other's homes. I love the company who have been so readily accepting of meeting new people and being inclusive during conversations.
And as natural as it is to Tush and co, (hehe) it isn't something that is on the spur of the moment. Hosts plan a week ahead and so do guests, and they won't cancel at the last minute because their tired. You might argue that they don't have the work load we do but it doesn't mean we can break our own word right? So to all whom I've done this to - my sincerest apologies. I will not do it again. And I will of course, endeavour to cook and treat you to something vaguely edible, with lots of wine at mine's.
It really isn't the lifestyle in Singapore but since when have I made that my benchmark, right? So at this moment I'm quite determined to live as I feel I should. That means deciding when I will cook and make time to get grocceries and go home early. That means I will plan what to do during the weekends, even if it is to go to the beach to read, so that I will be able to do it, and then I can start liking my life again.
As a matter of course, the same goes to work as well - phew..
Saturday, August 11, 2007
Righto.. here’s post 1 of the
Haha..
They day didn’t start too wonderfully with a load of stuff to do.. but thankfully we had a meeting that ended early so I didn’t have to worry about missing my flight.. thank goodness!
Dinner with Popeyes was nice, with Ridz and there after… was the flight! One of the more interesting flights, I must say. I was seated between 2 guys – on the left was a nice cute Italian who didn’t speak much English and was really into his PSP. Haha.. and on the right was a Bulgarian fellow who was reading – guess what? Chaucer! Haha.. a Bulgarian translation of Chaucer, beat that! We started talking about it and he’s apparently read Tolstoy, and other European authors. When was the last time you met someone who’s not a teacher or student and reading such literature for leisure? Even though he wasn’t fluent in English, we had a lovely conversation about tone and nuances that are lost in the translation process.. nothing really academic but it was totally fun! Haha.. and the best part – He’s a truck driver living in
So now I’m at the airport, 8am
But back to
I hope I can find the iRiver Clix here.
Oh, and I LOVE THE COLD!!!!
Friday, August 10, 2007
Thursday, August 02, 2007
Remembering old loves .. and John Mayer *smile*
Back to you
It always comes around
Back to you
I tried to forget you
I tried to stay away
But it's too late
Over you
I'm never over
Over you
Something about you
It's just the way you move
The way you move me
I'm so good at forgetting
And I quit ever game I play
But forgive me, love
I can't turn and walk away
Back to you
It always comes around
Back to you
I walk with your shadow
I'm sleeping in my bed
With your silhouette
should have smiled in that picture
If it's the last that I'll see of you
It's the least that you
Could not do
Leave the light on
I'll never give up on you
Leave the light on
For me too
Back to me
I know that it comes
Back to me
Doesn't it scare you
Your will is not as strong
As it used to be
Monday, July 30, 2007
Sunday, July 29, 2007
“Once we get to the end of this song, then it will begin again.” So you said in our bed. I was watching light slip through blinds to find your skin. “So take your medicine and I won’t ask where you’ve been. Live your lost weekend, I know you’ve wanted it. Get big, little kid. And I can't say why each day doesn’t quite fit the space we saved for it.” But if that space now demands that you throw up both your hands and call it quits... “Take your midnight trip. I know you’ve dreamed of it. Walk your sunset strip, because I think you’ve needed it to get big, little kid. But just remember that our love only got this good because of the younger days that you'd like to outstrip. So drink your cup down to the dregs and leave that club on shaking legs with another guy, but remember: I'm not him. Take your medicine and I won=t ask where you’ve been. Live your lost weekend, I know you’ve wanted it. Get big, little kid. And once we get to the end of this song, then another will begin.”
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
Coffee in Love.jpg
It's been a while since I've been so moved by a picture. One I can hardly bear to look at for more than a second.
Here's the definition of "bittersweet"
haha.. and yes, I envy them.
Thanks Jenn, and cuppacoffeelovers.com
Monday, July 09, 2007
Urges
Had the urge to write today. Too bad I couldn't find anyone to write to who wouldn't feel that its weird or to find it such a novelty that it becomes more interesting that what I had to say. Sad, isn't it that you can't share a thought through words and "delayed" communication anymore. Everything is instant and while that's exciting, it is also completely transient. There one moment, and lost the next. It's impossible to share it with anyone else other than whoever is online and interested. And it makes any experience completely shallow because that's all it is, a reaction to stimulation. Completely thoughtless and meaningless.
How is it that I have completely lost the skills for meaningful expression? How is it that in this day of technological wonders in communication, we have nothing of worth to communicate? When we are so precise with each calculation, we have all encompassing words that are "multi-functional" so you never really know the intensity of emotions and magnitude of thoughts.
And so here we are, with words that are meant to only be taken at face value because no one takes the time to think any deeper than the page it's written on. So perhaps it is a vicious cycle we save time by reading only for the essential, and help others by writing only the gist, and layer by layer we summarise the points, make everything concise so that it says only what it has to say to convey a fact that can be picked up at a glance.
So no one looks. And most certainly, no one sees.
How is it that I have completely lost the skills for meaningful expression? How is it that in this day of technological wonders in communication, we have nothing of worth to communicate? When we are so precise with each calculation, we have all encompassing words that are "multi-functional" so you never really know the intensity of emotions and magnitude of thoughts.
And so here we are, with words that are meant to only be taken at face value because no one takes the time to think any deeper than the page it's written on. So perhaps it is a vicious cycle we save time by reading only for the essential, and help others by writing only the gist, and layer by layer we summarise the points, make everything concise so that it says only what it has to say to convey a fact that can be picked up at a glance.
So no one looks. And most certainly, no one sees.
Sunday, June 24, 2007
dedicated to the girls
What gives, what helps
The Intuition
I'll know, I'll know
(Oh) I won't have to be shown
The way home
And it's not about a boy
Although, although
They can lead you
Hide or reveal too
A destination known
Only by the one
Whose fate is overgrown
Piecemeal could break your home
And have
A love is not complete
With only heat
They can tease you
Break or complete you
And in came a heatwave
A merciful save
You choose, you chose
Poetry over prose
A map is more unreal
(Oh) Than where you've been
Or how you feel
And it's impossible to tell
How important something was
And what you might have missed out on
And how it might have changed it all
Did I, did I miss out on you?
Intuition- Feist
The Intuition
I'll know, I'll know
(Oh) I won't have to be shown
The way home
And it's not about a boy
Although, although
They can lead you
Hide or reveal too
A destination known
Only by the one
Whose fate is overgrown
Piecemeal could break your home
And have
A love is not complete
With only heat
They can tease you
Break or complete you
And in came a heatwave
A merciful save
You choose, you chose
Poetry over prose
A map is more unreal
(Oh) Than where you've been
Or how you feel
And it's impossible to tell
How important something was
And what you might have missed out on
And how it might have changed it all
Did I, did I miss out on you?
Intuition- Feist
Thursday, June 21, 2007
A wish for Love.
What i miss most, is sharing life's tiny pleasures
- in a thought-
in a happy, dancey dinner =)
a compelling movie
Flowers in the sun =)
scintillating music.
I still love you. But we're ok. There will be something more that is truer to us and more beautiful than we can ever imagine. Then we will each create a philosophy, feast, epic, eden and kick ass rock concert for the world. And as we stand on that stage, each suddenly alive and each complete, we will remember,
the thoughts
the dinners
the movies
the flowers in the sun
Bangkok Rock
*grin*
- in a thought-
in a happy, dancey dinner =)
a compelling movie
Flowers in the sun =)
scintillating music.
I still love you. But we're ok. There will be something more that is truer to us and more beautiful than we can ever imagine. Then we will each create a philosophy, feast, epic, eden and kick ass rock concert for the world. And as we stand on that stage, each suddenly alive and each complete, we will remember,
the thoughts
the dinners
the movies
the flowers in the sun
Bangkok Rock
*grin*
Friday, June 08, 2007
Sunday, May 27, 2007
Friday, May 18, 2007
a flame tree
a flame tree, stoic in the night
breeze
unyielding in the hurricane of passion, bent over backwards
a flame tree, stoic in the night
breeze
breeze
unyielding in the hurricane of passion, bent over backwards
a flame tree, stoic in the night
breeze
Thursday, May 17, 2007
Event idea of the Year!!
-tush- says:
are we planning something fun?
boo~ i still don't says:
singles night out where if you're single, you're single, and if your not single, you pretend
boo~ i still don't says:
and we go out, flirt like mad and realise no one is interested so the pretend singles go back and are comforted that they have a partner and the single singles are motivated to look harder for rich me
Boys and Girls who are interested, please leave your name and if this ever happens, we'll send you an invite!!
are we planning something fun?
boo~ i still don't says:
singles night out where if you're single, you're single, and if your not single, you pretend
boo~ i still don't says:
and we go out, flirt like mad and realise no one is interested so the pretend singles go back and are comforted that they have a partner and the single singles are motivated to look harder for rich me
Boys and Girls who are interested, please leave your name and if this ever happens, we'll send you an invite!!
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
Monday, May 14, 2007
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
Hmm i was just reading through some opinions on the issues of decriminalising homosexuality in singapore.
Here's my take at 3am in the morning:
Really, why do you bother with a society that wants you only for your economic contribution and if you are just like them? Assuming their argument that decriminalising will cause straight people to become gay and just because people have and alternative lifestyle to choose from, everyone will ignore who they really are and jump on the bandwagon, what they are saying is that they don't trust themselves to do the "right thing" when they can choose not to. These are people who put their insecurities ahead of your basic rights as a human being. You won't tolerate friends who force you wear the same ugly clothes as them so that they wont look ugly, so why should you try so hard to convince these scared little people who obviously can't think straight?
Go and live the life you need to live. Dont waste it on little frogs in wells. It is quite a defeatist attitude and there are those for whom their family and friends mean alot to them so they will continue fighting. Good for you and I wish you luck but don't get your hopes up too high. There's no point feeling like a loser for failing to improve the lives of those who are quite happy stuck in the mud as they are.
Here's my take at 3am in the morning:
Really, why do you bother with a society that wants you only for your economic contribution and if you are just like them? Assuming their argument that decriminalising will cause straight people to become gay and just because people have and alternative lifestyle to choose from, everyone will ignore who they really are and jump on the bandwagon, what they are saying is that they don't trust themselves to do the "right thing" when they can choose not to. These are people who put their insecurities ahead of your basic rights as a human being. You won't tolerate friends who force you wear the same ugly clothes as them so that they wont look ugly, so why should you try so hard to convince these scared little people who obviously can't think straight?
Go and live the life you need to live. Dont waste it on little frogs in wells. It is quite a defeatist attitude and there are those for whom their family and friends mean alot to them so they will continue fighting. Good for you and I wish you luck but don't get your hopes up too high. There's no point feeling like a loser for failing to improve the lives of those who are quite happy stuck in the mud as they are.
the social fabric today is made up of ironies.
The world wide web lets you reach out to people on the otherside of the world and disguise your true self from your friends.
Apartment blocks can house hundreds of people within 2 football fields for decades yet the concrete walls block out the screams coming from less than 3 feet away.
Literacy which put millions of words and ideas into our minds created a society that wants to communicate that wealth of knowledge in bullet points, in acronyms, and summaries.
And the very tools that lets one learn about other cultures allows one to disrespect another and do away with courtesies simply because one can ignore the other.
The world wide web lets you reach out to people on the otherside of the world and disguise your true self from your friends.
Apartment blocks can house hundreds of people within 2 football fields for decades yet the concrete walls block out the screams coming from less than 3 feet away.
Literacy which put millions of words and ideas into our minds created a society that wants to communicate that wealth of knowledge in bullet points, in acronyms, and summaries.
And the very tools that lets one learn about other cultures allows one to disrespect another and do away with courtesies simply because one can ignore the other.
Friday, April 13, 2007
Saturday, April 07, 2007
the first time we ever got a chance to be alone, we knew
it was wrong to do
guess that's why i was drawn to you
the 2nd time leads to the 3rd, the 5th, the 7th time
I feel so alive, it won't last but it's alright
fleeting joy and fading ecstasy
here it goes again, oh
sneaking fruit from the forbidden tree, the sweet taste of sin
and I'm doing it again
yes I'm doing it again
oh, I'm doing it again
I said it would end
but here it goes again
this time you told me you saw me at the same motel
you said you knew me well
I had that familiar smell
you asked me how am I ever gonna learn to put my trust in you
like you want me to, 'cause I know what you're prone to do
accusations fly like bullets do
here it goes again, oh
you know me, because you're doing it too
it's like it never ends, never ends
oh you're doing it again
yes you're doing it again
oh you're doing it again
you said it would end
but here it goes again, and again, and again
damn I love you, but this is crazy
I have to fight you almost daily
we break up so fast, then we
we make up so passionately
why can't we just trust each other
you can't hate me and be my lover
passion ends, the pain begins
I come back
and we're doing it again
yes we're doing it again
oh, we're doing it again
we said it would end
but here it goes again
each time you call me home in a sweet refrain
say that things have changed, take away the pain
and you flash back to the first time you put your spell on me
you enveloped me, you feel good as hell to me
one moment leads to another few
here we go again, oooh
leaving you is oh so hard to do
I just can't pretend, can't pretend
I keep doing it again
oh, I'm doing it again
yes I'm doing it again
I said it would end
oh, oh, oh, oh
oh I'm doing it again
I said it would end
oh, oh, oh, oh
oh, I'm doing it again
I said it would end
but here it goes, again
it was wrong to do
guess that's why i was drawn to you
the 2nd time leads to the 3rd, the 5th, the 7th time
I feel so alive, it won't last but it's alright
fleeting joy and fading ecstasy
here it goes again, oh
sneaking fruit from the forbidden tree, the sweet taste of sin
and I'm doing it again
yes I'm doing it again
oh, I'm doing it again
I said it would end
but here it goes again
this time you told me you saw me at the same motel
you said you knew me well
I had that familiar smell
you asked me how am I ever gonna learn to put my trust in you
like you want me to, 'cause I know what you're prone to do
accusations fly like bullets do
here it goes again, oh
you know me, because you're doing it too
it's like it never ends, never ends
oh you're doing it again
yes you're doing it again
oh you're doing it again
you said it would end
but here it goes again, and again, and again
damn I love you, but this is crazy
I have to fight you almost daily
we break up so fast, then we
we make up so passionately
why can't we just trust each other
you can't hate me and be my lover
passion ends, the pain begins
I come back
and we're doing it again
yes we're doing it again
oh, we're doing it again
we said it would end
but here it goes again
each time you call me home in a sweet refrain
say that things have changed, take away the pain
and you flash back to the first time you put your spell on me
you enveloped me, you feel good as hell to me
one moment leads to another few
here we go again, oooh
leaving you is oh so hard to do
I just can't pretend, can't pretend
I keep doing it again
oh, I'm doing it again
yes I'm doing it again
I said it would end
oh, oh, oh, oh
oh I'm doing it again
I said it would end
oh, oh, oh, oh
oh, I'm doing it again
I said it would end
but here it goes, again
Monday, April 02, 2007
At this particular time, you are feeling that you are or were unjustly and undeservedly treated and/or betrayed in your hopes and dreams. You feel that everything is against you. But look on the bright side for you are, whether you believe it or not, a survivor.
You are a leader in every sense of the word. You know where you are going and you know what you need to do in order to get there. You exercise an inherent initiative in overcoming obstacles and difficulties. You either hold, or wish to achieve, a position of authority by means of which full control can be exerted over events.
It's the time of year that you are apt to become extremely restless and emotionally withdrawn. This is preventing you from becoming deeply involved with a person or persons within your sphere of influence. If you are willing to 'let go' and release your inhibitions you will find that a great deal of physical satisfaction will result, far more than perhaps you even believed you were capable of.
For some time now your hopes and expectations have been denied and because of this you are becoming withdrawn and introverted. Continual disappointment has manifested itself in you becoming both suspicious and restrained you have become withdrawn from others and have receded more and more into yourself. You seem to have lost your innate enthusiasm and imaginative nature, for fear that you may be carried away by it only to find that you are wasting your time. You are loath to trust people, as in the past your trust has been misplaced. You seem to be keeping yourself cautiously aloof from others. At this moment in time your attitude is to trust nobody - until they can prove themselves to you.
You are moody and depressed at this time but it will pass. All of your hopes and dreams seem to have gone astray and you are fearful of planning further for the future. Disappointment at the non fulfilment of your hopes and the fear that to formulate fresh goals will only lead to further setbacks have resulted in considerable anxiety and you try to escape from this by withdrawing into yourself. But that is not the answer. You have the power to succeed, believe in yourself... all is possible to him who believes.
Saturday, March 31, 2007
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
It is four a.m.
So who am I.
What do I want to be.
What am I in this world.
What am I looking for?
Lost.
What do I want to be.
What am I in this world.
What am I looking for?
Lost.
Friday, March 02, 2007
clearer with beer
and so it is
and so it has to be
a bird in a gilded cage is a dead bird nonetheless.
Unkept promises of abandonment will not keep it alive.
and so it has to be
a bird in a gilded cage is a dead bird nonetheless.
Unkept promises of abandonment will not keep it alive.
Wednesday, February 28, 2007
Monday, February 26, 2007
Thursday, February 22, 2007
thoughts on a bus
A turning tide
Lovers at a great divide
why d'you laugh
When I know that you hurt inside?
And why d'you say
It's just another day, nothing in my way
I don't wanna go, I don't wanna stay
So there's nothing left to say?
And why d'you lie
When you wanna die, when you hurt inside
Don't know what you lie for anyway
Now there's nothing left to say
A tell-tale sign
You don't know where to draw the line
And why d'you say
It's just another day, nothing in my way
I don't wanna go, I don't wanna stay
So there's nothing left to say
And why d'you lie
When you wanna die, when you hurt inside
Don't know what you lie for anyway
Now there's nothing left to say
Well for a lonely soul, you're having such a nice time
For a lonely soul, you're having such a nice time
For a lonely soul, it seems to me that you're having such a nice time
You're having such a nice time
For a lonely soul, you're having such a nice time
For a lonely soul, you're having such a nice time
For a lonely soul, it seems to me that you're having such a nice time
You're having such a nice time
Lovers at a great divide
why d'you laugh
When I know that you hurt inside?
And why d'you say
It's just another day, nothing in my way
I don't wanna go, I don't wanna stay
So there's nothing left to say?
And why d'you lie
When you wanna die, when you hurt inside
Don't know what you lie for anyway
Now there's nothing left to say
A tell-tale sign
You don't know where to draw the line
And why d'you say
It's just another day, nothing in my way
I don't wanna go, I don't wanna stay
So there's nothing left to say
And why d'you lie
When you wanna die, when you hurt inside
Don't know what you lie for anyway
Now there's nothing left to say
Well for a lonely soul, you're having such a nice time
For a lonely soul, you're having such a nice time
For a lonely soul, it seems to me that you're having such a nice time
You're having such a nice time
For a lonely soul, you're having such a nice time
For a lonely soul, you're having such a nice time
For a lonely soul, it seems to me that you're having such a nice time
You're having such a nice time
Sunday, February 04, 2007
While having myself a cuppa lovin'...
So there's my cuppa, and here's the reminiscin'..I miss my little room with the big window.
And the view out into the sky.
Where over a little hill,
Is where the sunsets lie.
We're huddled against the heater,
On that little fold out bed,
Watching Stephen Chow
Fall over his own head.
And then quite out of now where,
I gave a little squeal.
"It's snowing its snowing!"
Oh I can remember how that feels!
We push open that giant window
and climb out onto the ledge
To watch the rest of the street
all go a little mad.
hehe..
As one by one the snow flakes fell
and settled on our noses,
we felt them on our cheeks
pretty and soft - like roses.
It filled me with a wistful yearning
for life to always be like that
But alas I'm here.
What happened to that?
I miss the winter
I miss being carefree
I miss the friendship
I miss me.
Me.
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
23 and counting...
it has barely begun.. and sometimes i can't wait for it to end. Still, it has been and experience and theres nothing better to do with it than learn and move on. But history likes to repeat itself, unfortunately.
its time to get off that bed and step into your Possibility. but please dont trip over your feet.
its time to get off that bed and step into your Possibility. but please dont trip over your feet.
Friday, January 12, 2007
Hehe...
"She's My Man"
This town was built on muddy stilts
By the lunatic parade
It rains like Revelations
Gonna wash these freaks away
Some girls wanna hold your hand
And some girls like to pray
Well my girl takes her drinks
With dust and rusty razor blades
As I lie between these covers
I wanna tell her that I love it
When she chokes me in the
Backseat of her riverboat 'cause
She's my man
And we got all the balls we need
When you taste that pavement
You're amazed
She smells your sympathy
So bye bye ladies
May the best queen hold the crown
For the most bush sold on the levee
My my, how word gets around
She strangles for a good time
And she kills my self-control
She's my man, don't be too sad sonny
'Cause she'll never be your woman no more
Someday soon, this dank lagoon's
Gonna sink right into hell
They'll hide you from Big Ida
At the Sho' Enough Hotel
The Ladies of the evening's just
A tombstone in your bed
Well my girl eats a wounded preacher
'tween two loaves of bread
I know she's up to something
But how can I run when she's just
Keel-hauled twenty-on to nothing
I'll stay next to the steel coal oven 'cause
She's my man
And we got all the balls we need
When you taste that pavement
You're amazed
She smells your sympathy
So bye bye ladies
May the best queen hold the crown
For the most bush sold on the levee
My my, how word gets around
She strangles for a good time
And she kills my self-control
She's my man, don't be too sad sonny
'Cause she'll never be your woman no more
All you need's just a fist of a tear-stained bunny
When the good ship comes to town
Who said loves a bitch'll sit next to me honey
Because this old boat's gonna run aground
I don't want to be the burden
Or your jealous bastard
I don't wanna be the Tarzan of your next epic disaster
She's my man
And we got all the balls we need
When you taste that pavement
You're amazed
She smells your sympathy
So bye bye ladies
May the best queen hold the crown
For the most bush sold on the levee
My my, how word gets around
She strangles for a good time
And she kills my self-control
She's my man, don't be too sad sonny
'Cause she'll never be your woman no more
She's my man, can't you feel her comin'
She's my man, she's gonna keep you runnin'
She's my man, she's gonna teach you something
She's me, she's my man
This town was built on muddy stilts
By the lunatic parade
It rains like Revelations
Gonna wash these freaks away
Some girls wanna hold your hand
And some girls like to pray
Well my girl takes her drinks
With dust and rusty razor blades
As I lie between these covers
I wanna tell her that I love it
When she chokes me in the
Backseat of her riverboat 'cause
She's my man
And we got all the balls we need
When you taste that pavement
You're amazed
She smells your sympathy
So bye bye ladies
May the best queen hold the crown
For the most bush sold on the levee
My my, how word gets around
She strangles for a good time
And she kills my self-control
She's my man, don't be too sad sonny
'Cause she'll never be your woman no more
Someday soon, this dank lagoon's
Gonna sink right into hell
They'll hide you from Big Ida
At the Sho' Enough Hotel
The Ladies of the evening's just
A tombstone in your bed
Well my girl eats a wounded preacher
'tween two loaves of bread
I know she's up to something
But how can I run when she's just
Keel-hauled twenty-on to nothing
I'll stay next to the steel coal oven 'cause
She's my man
And we got all the balls we need
When you taste that pavement
You're amazed
She smells your sympathy
So bye bye ladies
May the best queen hold the crown
For the most bush sold on the levee
My my, how word gets around
She strangles for a good time
And she kills my self-control
She's my man, don't be too sad sonny
'Cause she'll never be your woman no more
All you need's just a fist of a tear-stained bunny
When the good ship comes to town
Who said loves a bitch'll sit next to me honey
Because this old boat's gonna run aground
I don't want to be the burden
Or your jealous bastard
I don't wanna be the Tarzan of your next epic disaster
She's my man
And we got all the balls we need
When you taste that pavement
You're amazed
She smells your sympathy
So bye bye ladies
May the best queen hold the crown
For the most bush sold on the levee
My my, how word gets around
She strangles for a good time
And she kills my self-control
She's my man, don't be too sad sonny
'Cause she'll never be your woman no more
She's my man, can't you feel her comin'
She's my man, she's gonna keep you runnin'
She's my man, she's gonna teach you something
She's me, she's my man
Sunday, December 31, 2006
Hmm.. Last day of the year but I won't get to resolutions yet.
The last two nights have been quite nice and comforting in the dreams department =) Last night was playing texas hold'em with my bro and dad.. haha.. guess where that came from. Night before was quite an adventure with a nice ending even though I think it started off quite sinister. Not really sure now. haha.
Anyways, since I'll be on event over the turn of the year, here's wishing all a fabulous 2007 in advance and may it be a year for dreams and wishes to come true!
Love y'all!
The last two nights have been quite nice and comforting in the dreams department =) Last night was playing texas hold'em with my bro and dad.. haha.. guess where that came from. Night before was quite an adventure with a nice ending even though I think it started off quite sinister. Not really sure now. haha.
Anyways, since I'll be on event over the turn of the year, here's wishing all a fabulous 2007 in advance and may it be a year for dreams and wishes to come true!
Love y'all!
Sunday, December 24, 2006
Goin Home
I love introducing people to the things I love. It's absolutely brilliant because you're reminded of the wonderful things that attracted you to it in the first place and you always find new things to love! Home Club is no exception. Brought Tush around after a night at MOS. Thought we'd just chill and have a last drink.. also because I hadn't been there in a looooooong while and had a hankering since we were so close by. I'm glad it was a good experience all in all and showed her the unpretentious side of clubbing where people actually loved and knew the music as opposed to using the music to feel "cool", whatever that might be.
Come home soon!
Come home soon!
Sunday, December 17, 2006
Greedy
I hate it when i get greedy. Haha.. it's really true that you can't have too much of a good thing. Maybe that's why some people think they wanna settle down.
Thursday, December 07, 2006
Be fair to me
tell me what you know
how do l decide
if l should stay or go
am l good enough
will i ever see
how this could ever be
tell me right now
then l won't waste my time
chasing something
that will never be mine
dreams are dreams
they don't have to come true
as a matter of fact
they seldom do
a miracle now
is a way that is found
to get out of this mess
please sir, let me have this one
and you can have the rest
tell me what you know
how do l decide
if l should stay or go
am l good enough
will i ever see
how this could ever be
tell me right now
then l won't waste my time
chasing something
that will never be mine
dreams are dreams
they don't have to come true
as a matter of fact
they seldom do
a miracle now
is a way that is found
to get out of this mess
please sir, let me have this one
and you can have the rest
Sunday, December 03, 2006
Liberation!
AAAAah! hahah.. finally! It didn't really hit until the weekend started :) first in what - 3months? And it feels amazing! haha.. all that freedom to do what you want and nothing that you don't want! No restrictions as to where you need to be and what you need to be doing. Could've been better but dreams are in the making out there and it really is quite cool. haha.. i'm actually quite proud of it ;)
i love having my time to be mine :D i love it love it love it! now i wanna go for a coffee, club, drink, beach, dinner, HANG OUT!! I love life!! hahaha... I now have time for a movie! Cut my hair! READ! LIVE!
wooo hooo!!!!
i love having my time to be mine :D i love it love it love it! now i wanna go for a coffee, club, drink, beach, dinner, HANG OUT!! I love life!! hahaha... I now have time for a movie! Cut my hair! READ! LIVE!
wooo hooo!!!!
Monday, November 27, 2006
end
it was a quiet, almost non-event. Quite anti-climatic actually. haha.
So that was seven months of grief off my back : ) Can't say I'm sad that it's over. Not that it's much to shout about either since there's tonnes of paper to clear. But it's a relief that it'll never come back again. haha.. can tell that most of it was bad huh? Guess its time to muster up all that optimism from years gone by and try to see it all as one huge-assed lesson to be learnt. And for that I am grateful.
but please give me some time to recover ok?
So that was seven months of grief off my back : ) Can't say I'm sad that it's over. Not that it's much to shout about either since there's tonnes of paper to clear. But it's a relief that it'll never come back again. haha.. can tell that most of it was bad huh? Guess its time to muster up all that optimism from years gone by and try to see it all as one huge-assed lesson to be learnt. And for that I am grateful.
but please give me some time to recover ok?
Thursday, November 23, 2006
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
Start
Ok. New start to the day.
Has been good so far.. got up after only 2 snoozes, read on the train, snoozed a little on the bus and managed to buy breakfast, eat and clear emails in good time. Also decided to lose the coffee in the morning and do with juice instead. Healthier I guess. If I need to then coffee in the afternoon will do just as well since its probably when I need it most.
So on to a healthy start.. hope the rest of the day goes just as well!
Has been good so far.. got up after only 2 snoozes, read on the train, snoozed a little on the bus and managed to buy breakfast, eat and clear emails in good time. Also decided to lose the coffee in the morning and do with juice instead. Healthier I guess. If I need to then coffee in the afternoon will do just as well since its probably when I need it most.
So on to a healthy start.. hope the rest of the day goes just as well!
Monday, November 13, 2006
Refreshed
For some reason. Most probably the two 8-hour comas I've had within the past week. Of course, there's also the moving on to other stuff. It's like I finally have time to live and do the things I like again - reading, enjoying music without having to think about how it affects my mood, having proper dinners and drinks with people I connect with. Have a conversation :)
So in the morning, after the panic of waking up 30 mins late, here's what ran through my mind:
1) Take up driving again - get my licence within a year
2) Go back to Salsa and dancing in December - 2006
3) I will make a habit of reading prose written about things unrelated to work. If it leads me back to what I do and how I can work - fine.
4) Keep in touch with those I love. It's a horrible feeling to lose contact even for just a month. Really makes you feel more alone than you really are.
5) Make 1st Dec a real good one.
6) Always be inspired by what's around me. It's the only way to be creative and to know that you're still living.
So there. Six simple things to do that I will start on immediately.
First one that's already accomplished was reading - although for free at Borders. It was a book about the top creative minds in Singapore in the Ad industry and what inspires them, what their ethos is. And I'm glad to know that they don't live by some obscure, beyond mortal minds philosophy. They just keep their minds open.
It really isn't true that we close our minds to things. Most of the time we're quite receptive to new ideas, technologies, attitudes and mindsets. "Receptive" being the operative word here. Without being fed information or told of a new perspective, most of us are quite happy just not knowing or not having an opinion. The way to open our minds is to continually reach out to the world and be inspired by anything and everything. Imagine if we get so used to hooking unrelated things up and creating new ideas, seeing things in a totally whacked way, "creativity" will come in an instant! Brainstorm sessions will be a thing of the past because it happens over lunch, in meetings, while waiting for a bus, all the time! What a brilliant and exciting place the world would be to live in. Think about it - ideas that excite you - perpetually!
How wonderfully invigourating for a change!
So in the morning, after the panic of waking up 30 mins late, here's what ran through my mind:
1) Take up driving again - get my licence within a year
2) Go back to Salsa and dancing in December - 2006
3) I will make a habit of reading prose written about things unrelated to work. If it leads me back to what I do and how I can work - fine.
4) Keep in touch with those I love. It's a horrible feeling to lose contact even for just a month. Really makes you feel more alone than you really are.
5) Make 1st Dec a real good one.
6) Always be inspired by what's around me. It's the only way to be creative and to know that you're still living.
So there. Six simple things to do that I will start on immediately.
First one that's already accomplished was reading - although for free at Borders. It was a book about the top creative minds in Singapore in the Ad industry and what inspires them, what their ethos is. And I'm glad to know that they don't live by some obscure, beyond mortal minds philosophy. They just keep their minds open.
It really isn't true that we close our minds to things. Most of the time we're quite receptive to new ideas, technologies, attitudes and mindsets. "Receptive" being the operative word here. Without being fed information or told of a new perspective, most of us are quite happy just not knowing or not having an opinion. The way to open our minds is to continually reach out to the world and be inspired by anything and everything. Imagine if we get so used to hooking unrelated things up and creating new ideas, seeing things in a totally whacked way, "creativity" will come in an instant! Brainstorm sessions will be a thing of the past because it happens over lunch, in meetings, while waiting for a bus, all the time! What a brilliant and exciting place the world would be to live in. Think about it - ideas that excite you - perpetually!
How wonderfully invigourating for a change!
Monday, October 30, 2006
Saturday, October 28, 2006
Friday, October 27, 2006
Thursday, October 19, 2006
Cancer
Call it Procrastinitis, last-minutitis - whatever. Its a cancer and I've got it. BAD. And its like I can never learn my lesson. How hard exactly do I have to be hit to realise that I can't go on like that forever? Its like looking into a man-hole (as in drainage system, please focus on the right things here!), remembering how you broke your leg in 3 places when you last fell into it and then thinking "hmm.. ok let me step into it"
"We're so fucked. Totally and completely."~Tush
"We're so fucked. Totally and completely."~Tush
Monday, September 25, 2006
YES YES YES YES!!!
haha.. aiyoh.. haven't rooted for anyone like that in a long time.. Its nice to be that silly young thing again.. hehe
Sigh.. I'm so in love with him! hahaha "FREEDOM!"
Sigh.. I'm so in love with him! hahaha "FREEDOM!"
Sunday, September 17, 2006
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
Friday, September 01, 2006
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
Dedicated to all you guys out there who are trying to ride out a low. Youuuu are not aloooone...
Weekends
(Klüft/Perishers)
You don’t know meBut I’m sitting next to you
Every morning
On the bus or on the tube
You look tired
Would it help to hear me say
Don’t you worry
Friday’s not that far away?
On the weekends
We try to get our share
Of excitement and of fresh air
Trying to forget
Who we’re gonna be
When the alarm rings
On monday morning
If in the evening
All you do is watch TV
Cause your too tired for anything else
You’re just like me
Just remember
As you struggle through the day
Relief awaits you
Friday’s not that far away
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
OST 260706
"Dakota"
Thinking back, thinking of you
Summertime think it was June
Yeah think it was June
Laying back, head on the grass
Chewing gum having some laughs
Yeah having some laughs.
You made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one
You made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one
Drinking back, drinking for two
Drinking with you
When drinking was new
Sleeping in the back of my car
We never went far
Didn't need to go far
You made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one
You made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one
I don’t know where we are going now
I don’t know where we are going now
Wake up call, coffee and juice
Remembering you
What happened to you?
I wonder if we’ll meet again
Talk about life since then
Talk about why did it end
You made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one
You made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one
I don’t know where we are going now
I don’t know where we are going now
So take a look at me now
Thinking back, thinking of you
Summertime think it was June
Yeah think it was June
Laying back, head on the grass
Chewing gum having some laughs
Yeah having some laughs.
You made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one
You made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one
Drinking back, drinking for two
Drinking with you
When drinking was new
Sleeping in the back of my car
We never went far
Didn't need to go far
You made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one
You made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one
I don’t know where we are going now
I don’t know where we are going now
Wake up call, coffee and juice
Remembering you
What happened to you?
I wonder if we’ll meet again
Talk about life since then
Talk about why did it end
You made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one
You made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one
I don’t know where we are going now
I don’t know where we are going now
So take a look at me now
Sunday, July 23, 2006
Happy!
I loved last night!! Goondness.. its been a while since i've had so much fun that i'm hungover with happy.. haha. It really was a night that started off with so much possibility of independence, living a different life altogether.
Then it was a great set at home. Too bad it didnt end as beautifully as it started but the music made me feel so alive, just pulsing through my veins. Its always so amazing to see performers enthralled by their music, their creation. And to be able to share in that energy - its just so invigorating!
Then of course there is Poptart and great great company!
Fun really is living moments with the people you love. Its sharing that look as you scream the lyrics of the songs that exhilarates you. When you really live the high with others - one or two hundred.
Spread the love babes.. live it!
Then it was a great set at home. Too bad it didnt end as beautifully as it started but the music made me feel so alive, just pulsing through my veins. Its always so amazing to see performers enthralled by their music, their creation. And to be able to share in that energy - its just so invigorating!
Then of course there is Poptart and great great company!
Fun really is living moments with the people you love. Its sharing that look as you scream the lyrics of the songs that exhilarates you. When you really live the high with others - one or two hundred.
Spread the love babes.. live it!
Monday, July 10, 2006
Sunday, July 02, 2006
Weird and Wonderful Dreams
So it goes like this...
Some guy I'm really close to.. like my dad or something.. falls to his death in a crumbling building and of course, the crumbling building crumbles on him. There are many a desperate moment where I am scouring for traces of him in the site. I am pregnant for some reason. Nic discovers a new method of sifting through the sand and we find a/our ring - 3 interlinked.
Cut to sometime later (or its another dream, I cannot tell).
I see an empty dump site. It feels like it's ground zero of the crumbling building. Its one in a whole row of empty dump sites and we (i presume these are my friends but they dont make an appearance and i dont know who these friends are) decide to redevelop the area. Voila! We have spanking new HOUSES. Everything looks bright and cheery with lots of yellow and bright orange colours on the walls and DRIVEWAY. Last thing to get rid of is the flies.. many small ones and I borrow a pesticide from my neighbour Andrew. To top it off is the fresh, flowery fragrance of the Moonflower scent from Bodyshop - in that frosted bottle and magenta cap that I love but do not have. I am joyful and contented. And proud of what I have done.
Cut to years back (and its probably another dream).
I am sharing a room with a roomate. It is a typical uni accom type of room. There is one big bed and one smaller. My stuff are on the smaller bed but its our first day and havent quite decided who gets what. Rather than have to choose, we call Kams to ask why we have different beds and if we can change the small one for a bigger one. Kams isn't happy. haha..
I wake up.
Some guy I'm really close to.. like my dad or something.. falls to his death in a crumbling building and of course, the crumbling building crumbles on him. There are many a desperate moment where I am scouring for traces of him in the site. I am pregnant for some reason. Nic discovers a new method of sifting through the sand and we find a/our ring - 3 interlinked.
Cut to sometime later (or its another dream, I cannot tell).
I see an empty dump site. It feels like it's ground zero of the crumbling building. Its one in a whole row of empty dump sites and we (i presume these are my friends but they dont make an appearance and i dont know who these friends are) decide to redevelop the area. Voila! We have spanking new HOUSES. Everything looks bright and cheery with lots of yellow and bright orange colours on the walls and DRIVEWAY. Last thing to get rid of is the flies.. many small ones and I borrow a pesticide from my neighbour Andrew. To top it off is the fresh, flowery fragrance of the Moonflower scent from Bodyshop - in that frosted bottle and magenta cap that I love but do not have. I am joyful and contented. And proud of what I have done.
Cut to years back (and its probably another dream).
I am sharing a room with a roomate. It is a typical uni accom type of room. There is one big bed and one smaller. My stuff are on the smaller bed but its our first day and havent quite decided who gets what. Rather than have to choose, we call Kams to ask why we have different beds and if we can change the small one for a bigger one. Kams isn't happy. haha..
I wake up.
Weird and Wonderful Dreams
So it goes like this...
Some guy I'm really close to.. like my dad or something.. falls to his death in a crumbling building and of course, the crumbling building crumbles on him. There are many a desperate moment where I am scouring for traces of him in the site. I am pregnant for some reason. Nic discovers a new method of sifting through the sand and we find a/our ring - 3 interlinked.
Cut to sometime later (or its another dream, I cannot tell).
I see an empty dump site. It feels like it's the
Some guy I'm really close to.. like my dad or something.. falls to his death in a crumbling building and of course, the crumbling building crumbles on him. There are many a desperate moment where I am scouring for traces of him in the site. I am pregnant for some reason. Nic discovers a new method of sifting through the sand and we find a/our ring - 3 interlinked.
Cut to sometime later (or its another dream, I cannot tell).
I see an empty dump site. It feels like it's the
Thursday, June 22, 2006
Comfort
Ironic that it is in the place where there is most people that one’s privacy is least invaded. Where one has the freedom to do – rather not do – things and not have to consider the consequences on oneself.
“That… was that a smile?...”
“Is my bra showing?!”
So maybe there are consequences. But they are still quite inconsequential.
Saturday, June 17, 2006
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
Sunday, June 11, 2006
"I Don't Know What I Can Save You From" - [Röyksopp Remix]
Its after dinner, I'm sat on my bed.. room's clean (embarrassingly, thanks to mom and dad), I've had a fantastic weekend (thanks babes!), a much loved night of rejuvenation and rest, true blue home cooked food (once again, thanks to mom & dad) and all it took was for this upbeat tune (those of you who have heard this song will know what i mean) to make me realise how truly blessed I am with all the beautiful things that have happened to me this past 24 hours.
Its only when all the great things come together in a perfect combination that you see how many wonderful people and experiences there are that occur in your Life everyday that you completely take for granted.
Has this come at a time when I need it most? I don't think so. It's not been that bad but there are a few whom I know are going through a really rough time and I really wish they'll be able to catch a glimpse of how fulfilling their lives can be and how loved they are. There really is something worth hanging on to!
And when you see such perfection, it's inevitable that you are also struck by the million and one stupid, dumb things you are so close to doing that will ruin it all. Which is good because then you know what you need to save yourself from.
May everyone be blessed with love and beauty and inspiration and a big beautiful smile everyday :) I love y'all!
Its only when all the great things come together in a perfect combination that you see how many wonderful people and experiences there are that occur in your Life everyday that you completely take for granted.
Has this come at a time when I need it most? I don't think so. It's not been that bad but there are a few whom I know are going through a really rough time and I really wish they'll be able to catch a glimpse of how fulfilling their lives can be and how loved they are. There really is something worth hanging on to!
And when you see such perfection, it's inevitable that you are also struck by the million and one stupid, dumb things you are so close to doing that will ruin it all. Which is good because then you know what you need to save yourself from.
May everyone be blessed with love and beauty and inspiration and a big beautiful smile everyday :) I love y'all!
Friday, June 09, 2006
Horror Scope
Aquarius
As far as the astrological powers-that-be are concerned, you have permission to play hooky. Whether their authorisation will carry any weight with your boss and the people who depend on you, I can't say. But the pure cosmic fact of the matter is that you should devote as much time as possible in the coming days to avoiding responsibility, following your whims and indulging in sweet pleasures that in no way serve the values of the cold, cruel, workday world. It's time to wander out into a field of wild flowers and chase butterflies. Or something similar.
- Astrology Section, I-S Magazine.. week of June 9 2006.
Such sweet torture.. toy with your mind, and your desires... all the while telling you that it's not gonna work out. Seems to be the trend these days.
As far as the astrological powers-that-be are concerned, you have permission to play hooky. Whether their authorisation will carry any weight with your boss and the people who depend on you, I can't say. But the pure cosmic fact of the matter is that you should devote as much time as possible in the coming days to avoiding responsibility, following your whims and indulging in sweet pleasures that in no way serve the values of the cold, cruel, workday world. It's time to wander out into a field of wild flowers and chase butterflies. Or something similar.
- Astrology Section, I-S Magazine.. week of June 9 2006.
Such sweet torture.. toy with your mind, and your desires... all the while telling you that it's not gonna work out. Seems to be the trend these days.
Friday, June 02, 2006
Alternative Lifestyles
1. Plant turnips in Zimbabwe.
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Wednesday, May 31, 2006
Aha! Moments
Goodness.. it must have been EEEEEOOOONNNS since I last had the smarts. A flash of brilliance can make you so alive and full of adrenaline... imagine TWO in one night!!! Its Magical!!!
Its times like this that makes all the pain, frustration and grief worthwile...
I'm a FUCKING GENIUS!!
Wooo Hooo!!!
I ROCK!!!
Its times like this that makes all the pain, frustration and grief worthwile...
I'm a FUCKING GENIUS!!
Wooo Hooo!!!
I ROCK!!!
Tuesday, May 30, 2006
What good is a life that is nothing but emotionless, experienceless efficiency? Sure you get through alot of things but none of which you remember, have any significance to you, and has no purpose other than to pave the way for more clinical and methodical living? Is life just one long to do list? Then what's at the end of the list? Die? Maybe thats why as productivity increases, suicide rates increase too. Before our allocated time is up, we've gone through the whole bloody list and reach the end. And we're so fucking efficient that we can't even let nature take its course. Better to do it ourselves. Then we can move on.
To Fucking What?
To Fucking What?
Sunday, May 21, 2006
Full Circle
So it has come.. who woulda thought huh?
Yes, my dark eye circles are proper circles now.. even the eyelids are dark.. like what the hell?
I really need to sleep properly.. but nothing seems to work.. silence, music, pitch darkness, what else? I can't keep on wasting 6 hrs everyday in a state of unconsciousness but not getting any rest out of it... worse still, the day is ruined coz the drained batteries cant run anymore...
if anyone has tips that dont come from spam mail, please help!!
Yes, my dark eye circles are proper circles now.. even the eyelids are dark.. like what the hell?
I really need to sleep properly.. but nothing seems to work.. silence, music, pitch darkness, what else? I can't keep on wasting 6 hrs everyday in a state of unconsciousness but not getting any rest out of it... worse still, the day is ruined coz the drained batteries cant run anymore...
if anyone has tips that dont come from spam mail, please help!!
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
I don't get many things right the first timeIn fact, I am told that a lotNow I know all the wrong turns, the stumbles and fallsBrought me hereAnd where was I before the dayThat I first saw your lovely face?Now I see it everydayAnd I knowThat I amI amI amThe luckiestWhat if I'd been born fifty years before youIn a house on a street where you lived?Maybe I'd be outside as you passed on your bikeWould I know?And in a white sea of eyesI see one pair that I recognizeAnd I knowThat I amI amI amThe luckiestI love you more than I have ever found a way to say to youNext door there's an old man who lived to his ninetiesAnd one day passed away in his sleepAnd his wife; she stayed for a couple of daysAnd passed awayI'm sorry, I know that's a strange way to tell you that I know we belongThat I knowThat I amI amI amThe luckiest
-The Luckiest, Ben Folds
a self indulgent wallow.
-The Luckiest, Ben Folds
a self indulgent wallow.
It's the hardest thing I've ever had to do...
To open up my eyes
and look at all my To-Dos...
Waking up can be the most wonderful experiences in Life. Provided you get to go back to sleep immediately. Otherwise, it's probably the single most excruciating pain that we indulge in. Not helped by the fact that we have to go through it nearly everyday.
Sure, its a sweeping statement. Waking up can be full of hope, anticipation, excitement of whats to come in the day :) Just let me go back to sleep after that.
and look at all my To-Dos...
Waking up can be the most wonderful experiences in Life. Provided you get to go back to sleep immediately. Otherwise, it's probably the single most excruciating pain that we indulge in. Not helped by the fact that we have to go through it nearly everyday.
Sure, its a sweeping statement. Waking up can be full of hope, anticipation, excitement of whats to come in the day :) Just let me go back to sleep after that.
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
Space - A time and place to be intimate with oneself.
Clutter-less.
Noise-less.
Chatter-less.
Peace.
Rare.
Precious.
When was the last time you were with yourself?
Noise-less.
Chatter-less.
Peace.
Rare.
Precious.
When was the last time you were with yourself?
Thursday, May 11, 2006
Silly girls' nights out!!
Most fun to go totally silly and, for some, get picked up by little boys.. TWICE no less.. haha
I love you babes! We SO should do this more often. Cannot get old!!
I love you babes! We SO should do this more often. Cannot get old!!
Monday, May 08, 2006
Ruined
I wake up in bed at 1am and think its time to go to work.
I wake up in bed at 730am, think of the signages that need to be changed, what is the correct title to put up.
I wake up in bed at 735am and worry if I had forgotten to burn the bgm.
I cant go back to bed.
its 1.32pm
I wake up in bed at 730am, think of the signages that need to be changed, what is the correct title to put up.
I wake up in bed at 735am and worry if I had forgotten to burn the bgm.
I cant go back to bed.
its 1.32pm
Saturday, May 06, 2006
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