Aha! Moments

Goodness.. it must have been EEEEEOOOONNNS since I last had the smarts. A flash of brilliance can make you so alive and full of adrenaline... imagine TWO in one night!!! Its Magical!!!

Its times like this that makes all the pain, frustration and grief worthwile...

I'm a FUCKING GENIUS!!
Wooo Hooo!!!
I ROCK!!!

What good is a life that is nothing but emotionless, experienceless efficiency? Sure you get through alot of things but none of which you remember, have any significance to you, and has no purpose other than to pave the way for more clinical and methodical living? Is life just one long to do list? Then what's at the end of the list? Die? Maybe thats why as productivity increases, suicide rates increase too. Before our allocated time is up, we've gone through the whole bloody list and reach the end. And we're so fucking efficient that we can't even let nature take its course. Better to do it ourselves. Then we can move on.

To Fucking What?

Full Circle

So it has come.. who woulda thought huh?

Yes, my dark eye circles are proper circles now.. even the eyelids are dark.. like what the hell?

I really need to sleep properly.. but nothing seems to work.. silence, music, pitch darkness, what else? I can't keep on wasting 6 hrs everyday in a state of unconsciousness but not getting any rest out of it... worse still, the day is ruined coz the drained batteries cant run anymore...


if anyone has tips that dont come from spam mail, please help!!

I don't get many things right the first timeIn fact, I am told that a lotNow I know all the wrong turns, the stumbles and fallsBrought me hereAnd where was I before the dayThat I first saw your lovely face?Now I see it everydayAnd I knowThat I amI amI amThe luckiestWhat if I'd been born fifty years before youIn a house on a street where you lived?Maybe I'd be outside as you passed on your bikeWould I know?And in a white sea of eyesI see one pair that I recognizeAnd I knowThat I amI amI amThe luckiestI love you more than I have ever found a way to say to youNext door there's an old man who lived to his ninetiesAnd one day passed away in his sleepAnd his wife; she stayed for a couple of daysAnd passed awayI'm sorry, I know that's a strange way to tell you that I know we belongThat I knowThat I amI amI amThe luckiest

-The Luckiest, Ben Folds

a self indulgent wallow.

It's the hardest thing I've ever had to do...

To open up my eyes
and look at all my To-Dos...

Waking up can be the most wonderful experiences in Life. Provided you get to go back to sleep immediately. Otherwise, it's probably the single most excruciating pain that we indulge in. Not helped by the fact that we have to go through it nearly everyday.

Sure, its a sweeping statement. Waking up can be full of hope, anticipation, excitement of whats to come in the day :) Just let me go back to sleep after that.

Space - A time and place to be intimate with oneself.

Clutter-less.

Noise-less.

Chatter-less.

Peace.

Rare.

Precious.

When was the last time you were with yourself?

Silly girls' nights out!!

Most fun to go totally silly and, for some, get picked up by little boys.. TWICE no less.. haha

I love you babes! We SO should do this more often. Cannot get old!!

Ruined

I wake up in bed at 1am and think its time to go to work.

I wake up in bed at 730am, think of the signages that need to be changed, what is the correct title to put up.

I wake up in bed at 735am and worry if I had forgotten to burn the bgm.

I cant go back to bed.

its 1.32pm

I'm getting my life back again!!!

oh boys.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dUMwGtuTQwU

oh boys.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dUMwGtuTQwU

Precious conversation..

You~ Because I am who you perceive me to be and I am nothing without you. says:
is it coat-of-arms?
You~ Because I am who you perceive me to be and I am nothing without you. says:
the shield type things?
jenn: wjy had better be right says:
the symbol of the two things going at it and usually on shields
jenn: wjy had better be right says:
yup

"I feel like eating the world so that that they won't annoy me"

you the best babe.

haha

Life could be so easy...

If we all knew what we had to do and followed through without a single doubt that we are right. There wouldn't be a need for choices because there are no alternatives.

There would be no speculation, just certainty.

There would be no fear of rejection or reproach because you know that it is right the thing to do.

Thus criticism will lose its bite, bribery will be useless.

So what happens when completely opposite ideas meet head on?

In the bigger scheme of things, I guess this wouldn't work out very well.

Otherwise, I think I could use abit of that mindless resolve now.

Enough for now.

If you had a crystal ball, could you really not look into it?

I found a blog today. Sweetest thing ever. Not that its necessarily happy. I dont actually know how to describe it.. "sweet" really is too saccharine. haha..

Yet it is the most lovely, romantic, swoonable writing that you cant dismiss as frivolous because it is so heartfelt, genuine and painful.

I am amazed that there are still people out there who can express themselves so beautifully through words, even when accompanied by pictures. That someone bothers to put in any effort to communicate feelings in their purest, truest form. carefully chosen words, semantics, images that say exactly what is to be said in the correct intensity, to the right extend. so precise that the words themselves fade into the background and its the power of the message that hits you right in the gut or gently caresses your cheek.

And I will not share this blog address for if it should be read by someone who cannot appreciate its quality and eloquence, it will forever be cheapened.

haha.. i'm such an unforgiving, selfish bitch aren't i?

ambition

Calv. - It's business as usual... Nothing personal, just business says:
i dun wan to study
Calv. - It's business as usual... Nothing personal, just business says:
i wan to strike toto
Boo~ says:
haha
Boo~ says:
me too babe
Calv. - It's business as usual... Nothing personal, just business says:
lets be professional gamblers when the casino comes up
Calv. - It's business as usual... Nothing personal, just business says:
god of gamblers
Calv. - It's business as usual... Nothing personal, just business says:
goddness of gambers
Boo~ says:
haha
Calv. - It's business as usual... Nothing personal, just business says:
yea. ;lets both be GOGs
Boo~ says:
gogs..
Calv. - It's business as usual... Nothing personal, just business says:
yea. [G]od/dess [O]f [G]amblers
Boo~ says:
i know that..
Calv. - It's business as usual... Nothing personal, just business says:
ok
Boo~ GOG by profession. says:
there you go.
Calv. - It's business as usual... Nothing personal, just business says:
lol. ok. anyway i had to clarrify to tell u mah
Calv. - It's business as usual... Nothing personal, just business says:
if anything
Calv. - It's business as usual... Nothing personal, just business says:
i learnt never to ASSUME anything wif gers
Boo~ GOG by profession. says:
haha
Boo~ GOG by profession. says:
good thing to remember
Calv. - It's business as usual... Nothing personal, just business says:
yea. i hereby confer upon u, the honorable title of...
Calv. - It's business as usual... Nothing personal, just business says:
a GOG

The way Fridays should be

Woke up with Rihana's Replay in my head. Lovely ;)

Party time guys!

most cute even though i dont understand most of it ; )

Eartha Kitt - Je Cherche Un Homme Lyrics


Je cherche un homme, un homme, un homme
Un Pierre, ou Paul, un Jacques, ou Tom
Mais n'importe comment il se nomme
S'il est un homme, homme, homme

Je n'exige pas un ???
Qui s' ??? dans les salons
Ni un type fort comme un Samson
Pourvu que j'ai un «mate » un ???

Il n'a pas besoin d'etre un milliardaire
Qu'il soit beau, non ca m'est egale
Il n'a pas besoin d'etre un grand lumiere
star du cinema, ni prince royal

Je cherche un homme, un homme, un homme
Qu'il s'appelle Pierre, ou Paul, ou Tom
Pourvu qu'il donne son maximum
Je cherche un homme, un homme, un homme

Doesn't have to be prince or movie-star
A Texas oilman, or a French marquis
Doesn't have to be handsome as a picture
An ordinary guy is allright with me

Je cherche un hommme, un homme, un homme
Qu'il s'appelle Pierre, ou Paul, ou Tom
Pourvu qu'il donne son maximum
Je cherche un homme, un homme, un homme

Je cherche un homme, un homme, un homme

Never enough

10 hours.. T.E.N. hours and I'm still needing more..

gee.

http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/200805/1/.html

Goodness.. are we really really letting such naive people lead us into the future??

If they really believe in what they say then they're sadly misguided and living with their heads in a cumulonimbus cloud.

If this is their idea of PR skill.. I can't believe that they already feel like they can get away with saying things like this when they've just been introduced. Not a stitch of humility (fake or otherwise) and already asserting that they're hardworking.

We really are such suckers right.