Comfort

Ironic that it is in the place where there is most people that one’s privacy is least invaded. Where one has the freedom to do – rather not do – things and not have to consider the consequences on oneself.

On the streets, a constant buzz of activity, chatter, and rushing crowd lets you get away with idleness, minimal interaction and aimless wandering of your mind and feet. Lost in musing, speculating on the next trivial little thing that happens to cross your path. Like dried leaves of no consequence in the world anymore, that have no purpose to its existence, these fleeting ideas and conjectures come in and out of focus. A leaf – a silhouette – and its gone. A thought – a shadow of a thought – and its gone. And it doesn’t matter that nothing ever came out of it. Nothing was supposed to. There was nothing to be efficient about, no product to be derived other than the little frivolous extrapolation of reality that put that raised the corner of your eyes slightly.

“Mm.. wouldn’t I like to float around mindlessly all day…”

“That… was that a smile?...”

“Is my bra showing?!”

So maybe there are consequences. But they are still quite inconsequential.

Whom I think I am, I am not.

Is there worse?

Presenting Cheeks ...as jasmilyn monroe.

I love the genius of my friends ; )

"I Don't Know What I Can Save You From" - [Röyksopp Remix]

Its after dinner, I'm sat on my bed.. room's clean (embarrassingly, thanks to mom and dad), I've had a fantastic weekend (thanks babes!), a much loved night of rejuvenation and rest, true blue home cooked food (once again, thanks to mom & dad) and all it took was for this upbeat tune (those of you who have heard this song will know what i mean) to make me realise how truly blessed I am with all the beautiful things that have happened to me this past 24 hours.

Its only when all the great things come together in a perfect combination that you see how many wonderful people and experiences there are that occur in your Life everyday that you completely take for granted.

Has this come at a time when I need it most? I don't think so. It's not been that bad but there are a few whom I know are going through a really rough time and I really wish they'll be able to catch a glimpse of how fulfilling their lives can be and how loved they are. There really is something worth hanging on to!

And when you see such perfection, it's inevitable that you are also struck by the million and one stupid, dumb things you are so close to doing that will ruin it all. Which is good because then you know what you need to save yourself from.

May everyone be blessed with love and beauty and inspiration and a big beautiful smile everyday :) I love y'all!

Horror Scope

Aquarius

As far as the astrological powers-that-be are concerned, you have permission to play hooky. Whether their authorisation will carry any weight with your boss and the people who depend on you, I can't say. But the pure cosmic fact of the matter is that you should devote as much time as possible in the coming days to avoiding responsibility, following your whims and indulging in sweet pleasures that in no way serve the values of the cold, cruel, workday world. It's time to wander out into a field of wild flowers and chase butterflies. Or something similar.

- Astrology Section, I-S Magazine.. week of June 9 2006.


Such sweet torture.. toy with your mind, and your desires... all the while telling you that it's not gonna work out. Seems to be the trend these days.

Alternative Lifestyles

1. Plant turnips in Zimbabwe.

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Aha! Moments

Goodness.. it must have been EEEEEOOOONNNS since I last had the smarts. A flash of brilliance can make you so alive and full of adrenaline... imagine TWO in one night!!! Its Magical!!!

Its times like this that makes all the pain, frustration and grief worthwile...

I'm a FUCKING GENIUS!!
Wooo Hooo!!!
I ROCK!!!

What good is a life that is nothing but emotionless, experienceless efficiency? Sure you get through alot of things but none of which you remember, have any significance to you, and has no purpose other than to pave the way for more clinical and methodical living? Is life just one long to do list? Then what's at the end of the list? Die? Maybe thats why as productivity increases, suicide rates increase too. Before our allocated time is up, we've gone through the whole bloody list and reach the end. And we're so fucking efficient that we can't even let nature take its course. Better to do it ourselves. Then we can move on.

To Fucking What?

Full Circle

So it has come.. who woulda thought huh?

Yes, my dark eye circles are proper circles now.. even the eyelids are dark.. like what the hell?

I really need to sleep properly.. but nothing seems to work.. silence, music, pitch darkness, what else? I can't keep on wasting 6 hrs everyday in a state of unconsciousness but not getting any rest out of it... worse still, the day is ruined coz the drained batteries cant run anymore...


if anyone has tips that dont come from spam mail, please help!!

I don't get many things right the first timeIn fact, I am told that a lotNow I know all the wrong turns, the stumbles and fallsBrought me hereAnd where was I before the dayThat I first saw your lovely face?Now I see it everydayAnd I knowThat I amI amI amThe luckiestWhat if I'd been born fifty years before youIn a house on a street where you lived?Maybe I'd be outside as you passed on your bikeWould I know?And in a white sea of eyesI see one pair that I recognizeAnd I knowThat I amI amI amThe luckiestI love you more than I have ever found a way to say to youNext door there's an old man who lived to his ninetiesAnd one day passed away in his sleepAnd his wife; she stayed for a couple of daysAnd passed awayI'm sorry, I know that's a strange way to tell you that I know we belongThat I knowThat I amI amI amThe luckiest

-The Luckiest, Ben Folds

a self indulgent wallow.

It's the hardest thing I've ever had to do...

To open up my eyes
and look at all my To-Dos...

Waking up can be the most wonderful experiences in Life. Provided you get to go back to sleep immediately. Otherwise, it's probably the single most excruciating pain that we indulge in. Not helped by the fact that we have to go through it nearly everyday.

Sure, its a sweeping statement. Waking up can be full of hope, anticipation, excitement of whats to come in the day :) Just let me go back to sleep after that.

Space - A time and place to be intimate with oneself.

Clutter-less.

Noise-less.

Chatter-less.

Peace.

Rare.

Precious.

When was the last time you were with yourself?

Silly girls' nights out!!

Most fun to go totally silly and, for some, get picked up by little boys.. TWICE no less.. haha

I love you babes! We SO should do this more often. Cannot get old!!

Ruined

I wake up in bed at 1am and think its time to go to work.

I wake up in bed at 730am, think of the signages that need to be changed, what is the correct title to put up.

I wake up in bed at 735am and worry if I had forgotten to burn the bgm.

I cant go back to bed.

its 1.32pm

I'm getting my life back again!!!

oh boys.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dUMwGtuTQwU

oh boys.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dUMwGtuTQwU

Precious conversation..

You~ Because I am who you perceive me to be and I am nothing without you. says:
is it coat-of-arms?
You~ Because I am who you perceive me to be and I am nothing without you. says:
the shield type things?
jenn: wjy had better be right says:
the symbol of the two things going at it and usually on shields
jenn: wjy had better be right says:
yup

"I feel like eating the world so that that they won't annoy me"

you the best babe.

haha

Life could be so easy...

If we all knew what we had to do and followed through without a single doubt that we are right. There wouldn't be a need for choices because there are no alternatives.

There would be no speculation, just certainty.

There would be no fear of rejection or reproach because you know that it is right the thing to do.

Thus criticism will lose its bite, bribery will be useless.

So what happens when completely opposite ideas meet head on?

In the bigger scheme of things, I guess this wouldn't work out very well.

Otherwise, I think I could use abit of that mindless resolve now.

Enough for now.

If you had a crystal ball, could you really not look into it?