save room for my love
save room for a moment to be with me
save room for my love save a little
save a little for me
won't you save a little
save a little for me

- JL

I had a dream.

In it i was happy.

We took a drive around.

I was lauging, and so were you.

Then it was time to go home.

But we didnt.

Then we did.

And I was sad.

Hello there,

I would like to demand to be a bratty bitch, please.

Like now would be absolutely lovely.

Thank you!

It is four a.m.

So who am I.

What do I want to be.

What am I in this world.

What am I looking for?

Lost.

clearer with beer

and so it is

and so it has to be

a bird in a gilded cage is a dead bird nonetheless.
Unkept promises of abandonment will not keep it alive.

please...

I need my squad of cheerleaders!! where are my monday cheerleaders?!?!

thoughts on a bus

A turning tide
Lovers at a great divide
why d'you laugh
When I know that you hurt inside?

And why d'you say
It's just another day, nothing in my way
I don't wanna go, I don't wanna stay
So there's nothing left to say?
And why d'you lie
When you wanna die, when you hurt inside
Don't know what you lie for anyway
Now there's nothing left to say

A tell-tale sign
You don't know where to draw the line

And why d'you say
It's just another day, nothing in my way
I don't wanna go, I don't wanna stay
So there's nothing left to say
And why d'you lie
When you wanna die, when you hurt inside
Don't know what you lie for anyway
Now there's nothing left to say

Well for a lonely soul, you're having such a nice time
For a lonely soul, you're having such a nice time
For a lonely soul, it seems to me that you're having such a nice time
You're having such a nice time

For a lonely soul, you're having such a nice time
For a lonely soul, you're having such a nice time
For a lonely soul, it seems to me that you're having such a nice time
You're having such a nice time

While having myself a cuppa lovin'...

So there's my cuppa, and here's the reminiscin'..

I miss my little room with the big window.
And the view out into the sky.
Where over a little hill,
Is where the sunsets lie.

We're huddled against the heater,
On that little fold out bed,
Watching Stephen Chow
Fall over his own head.

And then quite out of now where,
I gave a little squeal.
"It's snowing its snowing!"
Oh I can remember how that feels!

We push open that giant window
and climb out onto the ledge
To watch the rest of the street
all go a little mad.

hehe..

As one by one the snow flakes fell
and settled on our noses,
we felt them on our cheeks
pretty and soft - like roses.

It filled me with a wistful yearning
for life to always be like that
But alas I'm here.
What happened to that?

I miss the winter
I miss being carefree
I miss the friendship
I miss me.

Me.

maybe i just dont want to do this anymore. whine.

23 and counting...

it has barely begun.. and sometimes i can't wait for it to end. Still, it has been and experience and theres nothing better to do with it than learn and move on. But history likes to repeat itself, unfortunately.

its time to get off that bed and step into your Possibility. but please dont trip over your feet.

Hehe...

"She's My Man"

This town was built on muddy stilts
By the lunatic parade
It rains like Revelations
Gonna wash these freaks away
Some girls wanna hold your hand
And some girls like to pray
Well my girl takes her drinks
With dust and rusty razor blades

As I lie between these covers
I wanna tell her that I love it
When she chokes me in the
Backseat of her riverboat 'cause

She's my man
And we got all the balls we need
When you taste that pavement
You're amazed
She smells your sympathy
So bye bye ladies
May the best queen hold the crown
For the most bush sold on the levee
My my, how word gets around
She strangles for a good time
And she kills my self-control
She's my man, don't be too sad sonny
'Cause she'll never be your woman no more

Someday soon, this dank lagoon's
Gonna sink right into hell
They'll hide you from Big Ida
At the Sho' Enough Hotel
The Ladies of the evening's just
A tombstone in your bed
Well my girl eats a wounded preacher
'tween two loaves of bread

I know she's up to something
But how can I run when she's just
Keel-hauled twenty-on to nothing
I'll stay next to the steel coal oven 'cause

She's my man
And we got all the balls we need
When you taste that pavement
You're amazed
She smells your sympathy
So bye bye ladies
May the best queen hold the crown
For the most bush sold on the levee
My my, how word gets around
She strangles for a good time
And she kills my self-control
She's my man, don't be too sad sonny
'Cause she'll never be your woman no more

All you need's just a fist of a tear-stained bunny
When the good ship comes to town
Who said loves a bitch'll sit next to me honey
Because this old boat's gonna run aground
I don't want to be the burden
Or your jealous bastard
I don't wanna be the Tarzan of your next epic disaster

She's my man
And we got all the balls we need
When you taste that pavement
You're amazed
She smells your sympathy
So bye bye ladies
May the best queen hold the crown
For the most bush sold on the levee
My my, how word gets around
She strangles for a good time
And she kills my self-control
She's my man, don't be too sad sonny
'Cause she'll never be your woman no more

She's my man, can't you feel her comin'
She's my man, she's gonna keep you runnin'
She's my man, she's gonna teach you something
She's me, she's my man

Hmm.. Last day of the year but I won't get to resolutions yet.

The last two nights have been quite nice and comforting in the dreams department =) Last night was playing texas hold'em with my bro and dad.. haha.. guess where that came from. Night before was quite an adventure with a nice ending even though I think it started off quite sinister. Not really sure now. haha.

Anyways, since I'll be on event over the turn of the year, here's wishing all a fabulous 2007 in advance and may it be a year for dreams and wishes to come true!

Love y'all!

Goin Home

I love introducing people to the things I love. It's absolutely brilliant because you're reminded of the wonderful things that attracted you to it in the first place and you always find new things to love! Home Club is no exception. Brought Tush around after a night at MOS. Thought we'd just chill and have a last drink.. also because I hadn't been there in a looooooong while and had a hankering since we were so close by. I'm glad it was a good experience all in all and showed her the unpretentious side of clubbing where people actually loved and knew the music as opposed to using the music to feel "cool", whatever that might be.

Come home soon!

Greedy

I hate it when i get greedy. Haha.. it's really true that you can't have too much of a good thing. Maybe that's why some people think they wanna settle down.

light up light up, as if you have a choice

even if you cannot hear my voice, i'll be right beside you dear.

Be fair to me
tell me what you know
how do l decide
if l should stay or go
am l good enough
will i ever see
how this could ever be

tell me right now
then l won't waste my time
chasing something
that will never be mine
dreams are dreams
they don't have to come true

as a matter of fact
they seldom do

a miracle now
is a way that is found
to get out of this mess
please sir, let me have this one
and you can have the rest

Liberation!

AAAAah! hahah.. finally! It didn't really hit until the weekend started :) first in what - 3months? And it feels amazing! haha.. all that freedom to do what you want and nothing that you don't want! No restrictions as to where you need to be and what you need to be doing. Could've been better but dreams are in the making out there and it really is quite cool. haha.. i'm actually quite proud of it ;)

i love having my time to be mine :D i love it love it love it! now i wanna go for a coffee, club, drink, beach, dinner, HANG OUT!! I love life!! hahaha... I now have time for a movie! Cut my hair! READ! LIVE!

wooo hooo!!!!

I love havana nights!! Everytime i watch the movie, i want to go to this place where you can be who you want to be at that moment. the grace, passion, intensity.. its just breath taking.

end

it was a quiet, almost non-event. Quite anti-climatic actually. haha.

So that was seven months of grief off my back : ) Can't say I'm sad that it's over. Not that it's much to shout about either since there's tonnes of paper to clear. But it's a relief that it'll never come back again. haha.. can tell that most of it was bad huh? Guess its time to muster up all that optimism from years gone by and try to see it all as one huge-assed lesson to be learnt. And for that I am grateful.

but please give me some time to recover ok?